Fatness
Literally.
Troy just sent me pix of the semiformal... and me not going to the gym everyday definitely shows. I don't want to only eat salads and work out at the gym two hours everday to look good. But it seems that I have to. I hate this!
I just don't want to look awful. And that's how those pix look. And poor Troy... he puts up with me this way! And yet he looks amazing. I would find it so much easier if I could just go with my friends all the time, but it seems I am such a lone-wolf when it comes to school. Yes, I hang out with people.... but it just seems that I am so independent. ANd sometimes (like now) I can really hate that. Ugh... Sadness. :o(
I think tomorrow I'm going to organize a meeting with a nutritionist on campus... not that she'll tell me anything I don't know but I seriously need help. I can't do this. I can't.
Troy just sent me pix of the semiformal... and me not going to the gym everyday definitely shows. I don't want to only eat salads and work out at the gym two hours everday to look good. But it seems that I have to. I hate this!
I just don't want to look awful. And that's how those pix look. And poor Troy... he puts up with me this way! And yet he looks amazing. I would find it so much easier if I could just go with my friends all the time, but it seems I am such a lone-wolf when it comes to school. Yes, I hang out with people.... but it just seems that I am so independent. ANd sometimes (like now) I can really hate that. Ugh... Sadness. :o(
I think tomorrow I'm going to organize a meeting with a nutritionist on campus... not that she'll tell me anything I don't know but I seriously need help. I can't do this. I can't.