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Im feeling like im at wits end with the people around me right now. I want to go deep in a cave and hide until this time of the month is over. I'm ruining friendships and relationships right and left. What ever happened to a simple life? What ever happened to the days of childhood when things like pms and financial problems didnt exist? I hate fighting, but i tend to do alot of it, especially the past two days. I hope the people i care about, that i have pissed off, can just forgive me for by bitchiness. I dont want my birthday to come! It's all down hill from here. The next big bithday is 50! so much to look forward too....whoo hoo!!!! I need to go lay down before i start pissing my own self off and fighting with myself. My mom asked me tonight what i want for Christmas. I told her i want a t.v. A big, flat-screened one! I know, I hate watching t.v. but one good thing about it is, put me in front of it for 15 minutes and im out! Like a light! It can be used as a sedative for now. Then when i move out, i'll already have it. Perfect plan in my opinion. Tomorrow Leslie is gonna be teaching makeup class all day. I'm so excited. I want to get to school early. ok. im done talking now.