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Wow I'm seriously thinking of just dropping everything..
I'm not the type to do drugs or even be by them but now... why not... :/
I have no feeling left in my body..
It's like I'm parilized..
I hate myself and what I do..
But I mostly hate that I have no one to talk to..
I wish he was here and he hardly ever is..
For some reason I just want my brother to talk to..
But I'm done with wishing.
I'm just gunna stay the way I am
And try and stay up in school..
I'll try and pass everything
I'll try and make people happy...
But I just want to be alone
Just leave me alone
You never made me happy
and you never will...
I hate everything about you...
But i hate myself more without you..
You make me cry every night before i go to bed even when we were together... nothing has really changed.. I was never happy I was always sad.. And how do I change this? everything is going bad... I hate who are you.. and I don't think your going to succeed in life. It's just who you are. Once a cheater always a cheater I'm living proof so don't try and say you have never cheated on me. Believe your friends over me go ago I don't care. You make me sick, you hurt me so badly.. you gave me what I have.. because your a whore. Because of you.. my life will never be normal.. I hate you and your never going to make it life. Your just going to bring me down later on if we stay together. My parents know so... And I found out.. you acted and did the same as my real dad.. What I want to know is how I found a daddy figure when i never knew him. I want to see the guy I never met. I want to see if its true. If it is I'll never be able to live with you.
All I've been doing is crying every night.. and having a head ache and smoking to where I would hope that the pain would go away sense I'm adicted to asprin. I don't know where I end up. I hope the ones who care understand.. I just want to make people happy and that when I'm living isn't happening.. I'm going now to see if I can creep up and get the gun..
Good night everyone.. Have fun
I'm not the type to do drugs or even be by them but now... why not... :/
I have no feeling left in my body..
It's like I'm parilized..
I hate myself and what I do..
But I mostly hate that I have no one to talk to..
I wish he was here and he hardly ever is..
For some reason I just want my brother to talk to..
But I'm done with wishing.
I'm just gunna stay the way I am
And try and stay up in school..
I'll try and pass everything
I'll try and make people happy...
But I just want to be alone
Just leave me alone
You never made me happy
and you never will...
I hate everything about you...
But i hate myself more without you..
You make me cry every night before i go to bed even when we were together... nothing has really changed.. I was never happy I was always sad.. And how do I change this? everything is going bad... I hate who are you.. and I don't think your going to succeed in life. It's just who you are. Once a cheater always a cheater I'm living proof so don't try and say you have never cheated on me. Believe your friends over me go ago I don't care. You make me sick, you hurt me so badly.. you gave me what I have.. because your a whore. Because of you.. my life will never be normal.. I hate you and your never going to make it life. Your just going to bring me down later on if we stay together. My parents know so... And I found out.. you acted and did the same as my real dad.. What I want to know is how I found a daddy figure when i never knew him. I want to see the guy I never met. I want to see if its true. If it is I'll never be able to live with you.
All I've been doing is crying every night.. and having a head ache and smoking to where I would hope that the pain would go away sense I'm adicted to asprin. I don't know where I end up. I hope the ones who care understand.. I just want to make people happy and that when I'm living isn't happening.. I'm going now to see if I can creep up and get the gun..
Good night everyone.. Have fun