Within you....
highlight of my day:
Went out to eat with my family at Steamers. I am not much of a fish person either...I can't decide if I like it or not..but I definitely don't like chips..or potatoes at all! I got the clam chowder. But I swear the whole ordeal was more like a doctors appointment. My mom the whole time was like.."Brina how are you?"..."How was your day?" She came out and had me rub this good luck thing so that I would have a good day at school this morning. Which is really weird..and it's also weird we went out to eat...we never go out on school nights EVER! Their excuses to go out was that my sister and I have been working so hard.....yeah...riiight.
I guess I'm just kinda like..I don't really want sympathy. It's a waste worry about other important stuff..not me. I don't want to talk about it...I am at that time in my life where I want to be left alone. I want to figure stuff out on my own. As Stace pointed out they probably are starting to realized how much they are going to miss me..me leaving next year and all. Which makes sense cause my mom has told me that before. But still! I guess probably being stupid like this helps them out a lot..now they won't miss me..they'll be happy..so technically I am doing them a favour. If I don't learn how to do stuff on my own how am I ever going to be able to survive at college. I am going to get made fun of. My parents have done everything for me..I am going to look like Paris and Nicole! Do they not understand that?!?! Also, I like just being by myself sometimes..not being social...like I used to be. Lately I have tried to be more observant and not so talkative...just let someone else take charge. I want to take things in..remember things. I don't want things to just pass me by like they have been my entire life. I want to be a more reserve person. I could never tell my mom this..she would think I am phsyco. Actually after talking to stace about this..I felt bad so I went to talk to her..and I was like..sorry I have been so inconsiderate lately. Yeah..well the conversation didn't last long..because then she goes...yeah...I know...are you pms-ing or something? I was like...NO...bye!
I want to get a deeper more fuller meaning of life...one of these days I am going to find it! Hopefully before I am old and grey hehe. When I find it...I'll let you guys know..but it is probably a little different for everyone.
Went out to eat with my family at Steamers. I am not much of a fish person either...I can't decide if I like it or not..but I definitely don't like chips..or potatoes at all! I got the clam chowder. But I swear the whole ordeal was more like a doctors appointment. My mom the whole time was like.."Brina how are you?"..."How was your day?" She came out and had me rub this good luck thing so that I would have a good day at school this morning. Which is really weird..and it's also weird we went out to eat...we never go out on school nights EVER! Their excuses to go out was that my sister and I have been working so hard.....yeah...riiight.
I guess I'm just kinda like..I don't really want sympathy. It's a waste worry about other important stuff..not me. I don't want to talk about it...I am at that time in my life where I want to be left alone. I want to figure stuff out on my own. As Stace pointed out they probably are starting to realized how much they are going to miss me..me leaving next year and all. Which makes sense cause my mom has told me that before. But still! I guess probably being stupid like this helps them out a lot..now they won't miss me..they'll be happy..so technically I am doing them a favour. If I don't learn how to do stuff on my own how am I ever going to be able to survive at college. I am going to get made fun of. My parents have done everything for me..I am going to look like Paris and Nicole! Do they not understand that?!?! Also, I like just being by myself sometimes..not being social...like I used to be. Lately I have tried to be more observant and not so talkative...just let someone else take charge. I want to take things in..remember things. I don't want things to just pass me by like they have been my entire life. I want to be a more reserve person. I could never tell my mom this..she would think I am phsyco. Actually after talking to stace about this..I felt bad so I went to talk to her..and I was like..sorry I have been so inconsiderate lately. Yeah..well the conversation didn't last long..because then she goes...yeah...I know...are you pms-ing or something? I was like...NO...bye!
I want to get a deeper more fuller meaning of life...one of these days I am going to find it! Hopefully before I am old and grey hehe. When I find it...I'll let you guys know..but it is probably a little different for everyone.