take a bow
im starting to feel that....feeling again
like i feel like all i do is work work work, but i have very little to show for it. and it seems like everyone else enjoys the fruits of my labor. like alyssa puts money in her savings, but then asks me to buy all these little things for her. and then she says its because i make more. well fuck, if you wouldnt rush to get out of work a half hour early everynight you'd have that much more money. or like the fact that i buy 80 bucks worth of "icecream" every other week, but everyone else "eats" the majority of it. and then when asked if someone, anyone, would like to go in all i hear is "im broke"
i know that im creating good karma for myself, but seriously, i dont know how much more being nice i can take. i like to be kind and generous, but there comes a point where i open up my wallet and see 25 bucks left for the week in there because i just spent 40 on "icecream" and another 10 on alyssa. and then ill continue to give her a dollar or 2 here and there. like....god....im to the point where i feel like....exhausted and i have that "why am i doing this" feeling, you know like...."whats the point in doing this routine for the rest of my life?"
well i have alot more to say but i have to go to work, so i can make money for everyone else to fucking enjoy. i'll be trying to get some stuff tonight so if anyone would like to chip in let me know......hahahaha get it? im funny....
like i feel like all i do is work work work, but i have very little to show for it. and it seems like everyone else enjoys the fruits of my labor. like alyssa puts money in her savings, but then asks me to buy all these little things for her. and then she says its because i make more. well fuck, if you wouldnt rush to get out of work a half hour early everynight you'd have that much more money. or like the fact that i buy 80 bucks worth of "icecream" every other week, but everyone else "eats" the majority of it. and then when asked if someone, anyone, would like to go in all i hear is "im broke"
i know that im creating good karma for myself, but seriously, i dont know how much more being nice i can take. i like to be kind and generous, but there comes a point where i open up my wallet and see 25 bucks left for the week in there because i just spent 40 on "icecream" and another 10 on alyssa. and then ill continue to give her a dollar or 2 here and there. like....god....im to the point where i feel like....exhausted and i have that "why am i doing this" feeling, you know like...."whats the point in doing this routine for the rest of my life?"
well i have alot more to say but i have to go to work, so i can make money for everyone else to fucking enjoy. i'll be trying to get some stuff tonight so if anyone would like to chip in let me know......hahahaha get it? im funny....