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My scan came back clear! yaya :-) i found the MRI itself quite disturbing really. i've had one before and with all my health things you'd have thought i'd be used to it but for some reason i struggled with it. as soon as i got moved into it i felt chlaustrophobic and i teared up. the noise was so loud and the space was so small it was horrible. once the music started playing and i kept my eyes closed but it wasn't a nice experience.
So although it would have been nice finding a cause for my pain, if i had a cyst or abcess in my spine it would have been a lot of hassle to operate on and recover from.
I've started appointments at a pain clinic now (just in case we never fix my problems) and AK (my doctor) is putting me on some new pain killers. i've been taking so much tramadol for so long now i'm a little worried about the effect on me of coming off them. i hope i'm not reliant on them, i don't fancy withdrawal symptoms. but i'm going to be on a patch that releases tramadol-type drugs into me all the time. hope it works! and i'm being given some morphine tablets for when my pain gets really bad. i'm just praying it helps enough so i can start working.
I enjoyed valentines day yesterday. it was the 3rd valentines day me and dave have spent together (even though we weren't officially together for the first one) and they're getting better every year. it was all very cliché. i made him a card, he bought me flowers and a card and we went out for dinner but i just enjoy his company so much it felt really special. after having a smoke the night before, we just slobbed around during the day and went to mexican restaurant Liming in the evening where i took him for his birthday in 2008. it was really nice, and looking around at the other couples in the restaurant, we were smiling and laughing way more than anyone else. it's so good after our couple of months of being a bit more distant and a few arguments to have been so much better since christmas.
it's my mum's 50th on friday. i'm making TWO cakes and lots of decorations for her. :>
in rather a lot of pain today but i need to have a good sort out of the flat and a clean so i'm going to go give that a try! xoxox
So although it would have been nice finding a cause for my pain, if i had a cyst or abcess in my spine it would have been a lot of hassle to operate on and recover from.
I've started appointments at a pain clinic now (just in case we never fix my problems) and AK (my doctor) is putting me on some new pain killers. i've been taking so much tramadol for so long now i'm a little worried about the effect on me of coming off them. i hope i'm not reliant on them, i don't fancy withdrawal symptoms. but i'm going to be on a patch that releases tramadol-type drugs into me all the time. hope it works! and i'm being given some morphine tablets for when my pain gets really bad. i'm just praying it helps enough so i can start working.
I enjoyed valentines day yesterday. it was the 3rd valentines day me and dave have spent together (even though we weren't officially together for the first one) and they're getting better every year. it was all very cliché. i made him a card, he bought me flowers and a card and we went out for dinner but i just enjoy his company so much it felt really special. after having a smoke the night before, we just slobbed around during the day and went to mexican restaurant Liming in the evening where i took him for his birthday in 2008. it was really nice, and looking around at the other couples in the restaurant, we were smiling and laughing way more than anyone else. it's so good after our couple of months of being a bit more distant and a few arguments to have been so much better since christmas.
it's my mum's 50th on friday. i'm making TWO cakes and lots of decorations for her. :>
in rather a lot of pain today but i need to have a good sort out of the flat and a clean so i'm going to go give that a try! xoxox