nothin' but a heartache
omg, that was the loooooooongest rodeo i have EVER been to. i will never go back to the Goldthwaite rodeo. neeever. the bull riding was last. and i didn't even stay for all of it. dalton was second to go, then we left. and i just got home at 1:30. they didn't start the bulls till 12:30. geeez. it's ridiculous.
he rode this reeeeally ugly bull named Diablo. ugh. he did good though. it's a Senior bull. which is generally for 16-19 yr olds and he's only 13. and a very small 13 at that. he didn't hang on for the full 8 seconds, bc he lost his footing, but he did really well. i'm proud of him.
my sister and i didn't talk till about 1/2 way through the rodeo. i didn't like it. then i think she said something to my mom about me not talking to her and my mom told her, "well you haven't talked to her either.." so i talked to her first. (i really didn't think i'd be the first to talk, but whatev.) so, here i am at her house, spending the night. haha. i'm so glad we're talking again though. i missed her and the kids a lot. and it's only been like a week. my family is very close knit, though. and i like it like that. i really wanted to bc now i can watch all the shows she has DVR'ed here at her house. haha they get more of the CSI's, NCIS's, and Law & Orders than i catch. soo yeah.
i'm pretty tired. and the rodeo lasted so long that i decided i probably shouldn't do anything else tonight. i was really really wanting alcohol though. like, still kinda do.
buuuut i took a couple of pills that will help me relax. (i'm turning into Brandon) haha no, i don't drink wine and beer with pills! grr@you, Brandon!
so yeah, i talked to my girl twice tonight so far. once right before she went into the club. (she called to tell me goodnight and the rodeo had hardly even got to going good yet, hehe) and then a few minutes ago. Belle took her out and made her slow dance with her i think and it made her think of me and she got upset, so she wanted to call me to tell me she misses me and loves me. :) i don't think she knows how much that means to me. to hear it, and for her to interrupt her "good time" to call and tell me that. wow. i talked to Jen, too. told her to take care of my girl. she said of course they would. which i knew. i definitely trust them. :)
my chest is hurting again. as soon as i pulled into the driveway here at Tammy's (i drove and my stepdad slept in the backseat), i started getting sharp stabbing pains in it. they're easing up, though. yay.
sooo anyway, going to find something to watch on tv. and momentarily let the WHOLE wall down and give in to this ache i have to acknowledge how much i miss my baby. *sigh* thursday will not come soon enough. i'm so ready.
hope everyone has had a safe weekend so far.
goodnight.
i love you so much, Miranda Leigh! <333
he rode this reeeeally ugly bull named Diablo. ugh. he did good though. it's a Senior bull. which is generally for 16-19 yr olds and he's only 13. and a very small 13 at that. he didn't hang on for the full 8 seconds, bc he lost his footing, but he did really well. i'm proud of him.
my sister and i didn't talk till about 1/2 way through the rodeo. i didn't like it. then i think she said something to my mom about me not talking to her and my mom told her, "well you haven't talked to her either.." so i talked to her first. (i really didn't think i'd be the first to talk, but whatev.) so, here i am at her house, spending the night. haha. i'm so glad we're talking again though. i missed her and the kids a lot. and it's only been like a week. my family is very close knit, though. and i like it like that. i really wanted to bc now i can watch all the shows she has DVR'ed here at her house. haha they get more of the CSI's, NCIS's, and Law & Orders than i catch. soo yeah.
i'm pretty tired. and the rodeo lasted so long that i decided i probably shouldn't do anything else tonight. i was really really wanting alcohol though. like, still kinda do.
buuuut i took a couple of pills that will help me relax. (i'm turning into Brandon) haha no, i don't drink wine and beer with pills! grr@you, Brandon!
so yeah, i talked to my girl twice tonight so far. once right before she went into the club. (she called to tell me goodnight and the rodeo had hardly even got to going good yet, hehe) and then a few minutes ago. Belle took her out and made her slow dance with her i think and it made her think of me and she got upset, so she wanted to call me to tell me she misses me and loves me. :) i don't think she knows how much that means to me. to hear it, and for her to interrupt her "good time" to call and tell me that. wow. i talked to Jen, too. told her to take care of my girl. she said of course they would. which i knew. i definitely trust them. :)
my chest is hurting again. as soon as i pulled into the driveway here at Tammy's (i drove and my stepdad slept in the backseat), i started getting sharp stabbing pains in it. they're easing up, though. yay.
sooo anyway, going to find something to watch on tv. and momentarily let the WHOLE wall down and give in to this ache i have to acknowledge how much i miss my baby. *sigh* thursday will not come soon enough. i'm so ready.
hope everyone has had a safe weekend so far.
goodnight.
i love you so much, Miranda Leigh! <333