Change
My first year of semester is going really well..actually im almost done. We have finals this week, im pretty nervous about two of them. History and Math. Im praying God will give me understanding and a clear mind when i study and take the tests. Life has been a little crazy lately. Ive been dealing with a few things, but the only thing keeping me alive and well is Christ. He really blessed me today. We had our childrens Christmas Play at church and it was so adorable to see all the kids singing about how much they love Jesus. afterwards, a lady that i work with handed me an envelope saying someone wanted to bless you. So it turns out, it was a 500.00 check for Pastor Appreciation. Im not even a pastor, and i know i dont even deserve that money, but God is faithful. Im praying to see what God wants me to do with it. i think it would be a really good idea to help out with someones Christmas this year. Thank you Father for always blessing me! another time a few months ago, God was really dealing with me about tithing and i did it and you know what? he gave me a 1,000 dollar check that same week. I know God is real. Im still dealing with trust issues with Jonathan though. He hurts me and he doesnt even know it, and we are both trying really hard. God please give me insight and patience. Please give me more of your Love , i need it so much. help me to be the woman of God you want me to be. Change me and prepare me for what will happen in the future. God i need Your grace and peace. Help me and guide me through this storm. i dont know what to do anymore.......im so at a loss. Teach him and grow him, and help me let him go. i dont want to not be in Your will, im so sorry if im not. please forgive me. i dont know what im doing anymore, but i know you are God. You are so faithful to me in the good and bad. thank you for your kindness, gentless, and eternal love. Wrap me in your arms and overwhelm in your light.