thinking and stressed
yeah,
ive got a whole lot on my mind right now...its just everything it seems pulling down on me and i feel hopeless, and i pretty much am, without God..but i know that He is always with me and guiding me.
Ive lost Gods fire in my life, and it makes me sad because i fear it is because of the church i have been going to . IM SO TIRED of leaving churches, and NOT BEING STABLE, so very TIRED, and there are times when i feel like this is where God wants me to be, and other times make me question why i am there...it just doesnt make since sometimes...ive lost myself, and i want it back, but where did it go? i keep searching and searching but find nothing. i feel like im lost in a wilderness, waiting on something that isnt going to happen. why cant i see someone that loves God as much as i do? WHY?? I want to find people i can trust my life with, who will lift me up, not tear me down, want to be my friend, not judge me, and just be there when i need to someone to talk to, a friend. yes, i have very few close ;friends; in my life, but im ok with that...no person can keep up with a billion friends....
i feel like im just missing out on something that everyone knows but me...
ugh, i know i sound crazy...i just need God to help me.
I want to know why mike hasnt asked to help lead worship when he knows how deeply i am with the Lord, that singing for Him is such a great passion, but yet he never does. i have so many people ask me when am i going to sing again..or i remember one time, when this woman told me shed rather hear me singing on there alone than anybody else....
but that ISNT THE POINT!!!! this is not for ME!!! but for the glory of GOD!
why hasnt the youth asked me to help lead worship, they always ask why im not singing....
why is it when i go to youth on friday, that it seems like no one is there to worship or to hear Gods word, but just to socialize and play sports? why?
why is there no fire anymore....why?
why is it so separated...
why do i feel so lost....
why cant get it to fit?
these questions i ask myself a million times, and the same answer always comes out..that i need to leave this all up to God, trust in Him, be still and know that He is God.
I need His strength in my life, and i know it is through the wilderness where God is testing you and the devil is attacking, because you are weak, but YET, God is my mighty strength.
peace overwelms now, my mind is suttle, and i feel i am not afraid, but yet strong.....
ive got a whole lot on my mind right now...its just everything it seems pulling down on me and i feel hopeless, and i pretty much am, without God..but i know that He is always with me and guiding me.
Ive lost Gods fire in my life, and it makes me sad because i fear it is because of the church i have been going to . IM SO TIRED of leaving churches, and NOT BEING STABLE, so very TIRED, and there are times when i feel like this is where God wants me to be, and other times make me question why i am there...it just doesnt make since sometimes...ive lost myself, and i want it back, but where did it go? i keep searching and searching but find nothing. i feel like im lost in a wilderness, waiting on something that isnt going to happen. why cant i see someone that loves God as much as i do? WHY?? I want to find people i can trust my life with, who will lift me up, not tear me down, want to be my friend, not judge me, and just be there when i need to someone to talk to, a friend. yes, i have very few close ;friends; in my life, but im ok with that...no person can keep up with a billion friends....
i feel like im just missing out on something that everyone knows but me...
ugh, i know i sound crazy...i just need God to help me.
I want to know why mike hasnt asked to help lead worship when he knows how deeply i am with the Lord, that singing for Him is such a great passion, but yet he never does. i have so many people ask me when am i going to sing again..or i remember one time, when this woman told me shed rather hear me singing on there alone than anybody else....
but that ISNT THE POINT!!!! this is not for ME!!! but for the glory of GOD!
why hasnt the youth asked me to help lead worship, they always ask why im not singing....
why is it when i go to youth on friday, that it seems like no one is there to worship or to hear Gods word, but just to socialize and play sports? why?
why is there no fire anymore....why?
why is it so separated...
why do i feel so lost....
why cant get it to fit?
these questions i ask myself a million times, and the same answer always comes out..that i need to leave this all up to God, trust in Him, be still and know that He is God.
I need His strength in my life, and i know it is through the wilderness where God is testing you and the devil is attacking, because you are weak, but YET, God is my mighty strength.
peace overwelms now, my mind is suttle, and i feel i am not afraid, but yet strong.....