spell quarterback backwards... okay... R....
Well, winter break has been exactly that, a break. I sure haven't been this happy in a very long time. I like that when I get sad it's for an extremely well-deserved reason and not the anxiety of my life. Thought about Ben a lot. Both good and bad. But it was having Katie there and talking to Nate that made me appreciate everything. Talking to everyone, and random people, makes me realize how much I'm enjoying my time away from school. I go to work tomorrow. another dreadful task. working with becca makes it bearable tho. Starting to think about my summer plans is good. But basically I've taken this break to re-evaluate some things, like my time at school, and life in general, and also too how lonely i've been. so i'm definately gonna use what i got out of last semester to make this one much better. for one, im not gonna work myself to the bone. now that i have a plan of attack and am going to counseling from the start i can develop a way to solve this. i'm already starting to take my meds differently(as per my doctor) so that i wont have to take them as often but they will still do the same thing, i'm not shutting out a social life, so yes, this means i am going to allow myself to have a relationship, if one should arise. so all in all, it won't be the dramatic finish i had previously. i'm making it my promise to visit those of you i told i would, and being there for everyone who needs me.
littleton is exactly what i needed, and i knew it. so hopefully now i know what i need and can give it to myself.
MARCH 13-17 <- thats my spring break
for those of you who asked and i said, yeah yeah i'll look it up. i just did.
so... thus far break has included soo much fun.
chinese checkers, loooongest pool/conversation/darts, wendy's late night (biggie coke, no ice), making necklaces, NALGENES, NYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, everyone getting sick, beer pong, bickfords, andy from merlind, boston!, cranium & pool & leslie romer
and to come...... childish teenage antics, becca n leaves :( katie comes home :) kim comes home :) working :( melissa comes!!!!! and we have another christmas, dentist appointment, more card games, becca smiths birthday!, lots of cool shit
and so, in my rage of boredom (if such a term can exist) i have been slowly doing the following: sleeping excessively, playing ridiculous card games on my laptop, writing (my life story), reading (stephen king short stories), and hanging with friends... a lot :)
but between late night x-files episodes and law & order i've been able to keep my sanity and regain a good portion of what part of it was lost.
yay for feeling happiness
on a random note, my lips are growing, they are getting bigger, its extremely weird, they arent swollen or anything, they are just getting bigger, and i can feel it.
littleton is exactly what i needed, and i knew it. so hopefully now i know what i need and can give it to myself.
MARCH 13-17 <- thats my spring break
for those of you who asked and i said, yeah yeah i'll look it up. i just did.
so... thus far break has included soo much fun.
chinese checkers, loooongest pool/conversation/darts, wendy's late night (biggie coke, no ice), making necklaces, NALGENES, NYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, everyone getting sick, beer pong, bickfords, andy from merlind, boston!, cranium & pool & leslie romer
and to come...... childish teenage antics, becca n leaves :( katie comes home :) kim comes home :) working :( melissa comes!!!!! and we have another christmas, dentist appointment, more card games, becca smiths birthday!, lots of cool shit
and so, in my rage of boredom (if such a term can exist) i have been slowly doing the following: sleeping excessively, playing ridiculous card games on my laptop, writing (my life story), reading (stephen king short stories), and hanging with friends... a lot :)
but between late night x-files episodes and law & order i've been able to keep my sanity and regain a good portion of what part of it was lost.
yay for feeling happiness
on a random note, my lips are growing, they are getting bigger, its extremely weird, they arent swollen or anything, they are just getting bigger, and i can feel it.