so much to do...
oh livejournal, yay for the larger sense of community, intimacy and privacy over the popularity, nakedness and fast pacedness of myspace and facebook.
anyway...
really feeling more motivated and compelled to expand my self lately...
maybe that bay area energy is finally hitting me. or something.
i do feel a little too isolated out here in the vallejo suburbs. it would be really nice to live in a walking area, with shops and hustle and bustle ten steps away, with strangers and new friends, and cafes and bookshops.
or i could do the opposite extreme...
and live next to fields and abandoned houses, or woods, and have wildlife and farm animals all around.
but this suburb living where television or the internet becomes the most interactive part of my day is killing my soul and i'm starting to have to rebel.
its not all bad- i went for a bike ride to target today and bought ice cream and trail mix and all the fixins for a green bean casserole for our thanksgiving. and ... oh yeah, that was it there is no and.
i have lots of things i am way overdue on doing- job applications, brpn stuff, books to list for sale online for much needed money, a bike to sell on craigslist, places to call that i want to volunteer at, etc.
so... i just need to figure out how to focus my time and energy. unfortunately due to the lack of a set-in-stone schedule, my body has decided it prefers to stay up late and sleep late, not good, not good. especially because my mind has been stuck in a long phase of procrastination and fantasy.
TIME TO WAKE UP... i must get busy doing the things that speak to who i know i am at heart and to the things i know will help me grow as a person. there are so many things i find myself drawn too, so no more time spent wasted in sitcoms or casual web surfing or following shoji around. time to wake up and make things happen.
...that's all i've got for now, but thanks Lj for the appropriate real friends only rant space.
anyway...
really feeling more motivated and compelled to expand my self lately...
maybe that bay area energy is finally hitting me. or something.
i do feel a little too isolated out here in the vallejo suburbs. it would be really nice to live in a walking area, with shops and hustle and bustle ten steps away, with strangers and new friends, and cafes and bookshops.
or i could do the opposite extreme...
and live next to fields and abandoned houses, or woods, and have wildlife and farm animals all around.
but this suburb living where television or the internet becomes the most interactive part of my day is killing my soul and i'm starting to have to rebel.
its not all bad- i went for a bike ride to target today and bought ice cream and trail mix and all the fixins for a green bean casserole for our thanksgiving. and ... oh yeah, that was it there is no and.
i have lots of things i am way overdue on doing- job applications, brpn stuff, books to list for sale online for much needed money, a bike to sell on craigslist, places to call that i want to volunteer at, etc.
so... i just need to figure out how to focus my time and energy. unfortunately due to the lack of a set-in-stone schedule, my body has decided it prefers to stay up late and sleep late, not good, not good. especially because my mind has been stuck in a long phase of procrastination and fantasy.
TIME TO WAKE UP... i must get busy doing the things that speak to who i know i am at heart and to the things i know will help me grow as a person. there are so many things i find myself drawn too, so no more time spent wasted in sitcoms or casual web surfing or following shoji around. time to wake up and make things happen.
...that's all i've got for now, but thanks Lj for the appropriate real friends only rant space.