Holiday Cheer? More Like Holiday FEAR.
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Right now I'm sitting in my AP US History class, and I really shouldn't be posting a journal entry right now. I'm supposed to be working on my court case research project, but I realized I'd much rather procrastinate and do that on the last night of my break! My court case is Engel vs. Vitale, a key Supreme Court case resolved on June 25th, 1962.
So here I sit, listening to a country music radio station online, writing a journal entry that probably no one will read, and thinking about why I've been in such an odd state lately.
I've really changed a lot lately, and I've gone from being someone else that I've created to finally maybe changing back into myself. It's a slow, grueling transition, but I think I'm finally beginning to make some progress.
You know, I'm not quite sure why, but for some reason I'm really scared of the holidays this year. Maybe it's because if I'm not busying myself, I'll finally start really thinking again. And for me, thinking is bad, because it leads me to philosophizing about the things that upset me the most, and that wouldn't be a very good way to spend one of my only semi-long breaks, now would it?
I'm guessing I'll be spending most of my time at the barn and with my best friend. And possibly making up all the work I didn't do last term....Oh no, I shouldn't think about that. It's just going to put a damper on my day.
I finished Hamlet! It was very exciting, and I definitely shed a few tears when he delivered his last speech. I also cried when Gertrude announced Ophelia's death. She's my favorite Shakespearean character, and someday I really hope I can play her. Oh, that reminds me, I'm kind of on a hunt for casting calls for Shakespearean plays. I have pretty high standards about productions, so so far I haven't been able to find anything, but I'll just keep my eyes open. Eventually, there will be something.
I'm going to try and get through a few episodes of Due South while I'm on break. After my grades went home, I've been grounded from watching it on weekdays. It's really a bummer, because seeing Paul Gross in his cute little police outfits is one of the highlights of my day. Anyways, I am completely obsessed, and hopefully I'll be able to get some of it out of my system over the next few weeks.
I'm also going to NYC after Christmas. I don't even know how I feel about big cities anymore! I have a very colorful personality, so it's not a matter of feeling like I'm being swallowed by the city...I don't know, maybe I just prefer peaceful solitude now? Well, I'm sure I will have fun despite my multiple personality disorder.
I'm going to go now before I get caught :D, but I will be back without fail. Never fear.
Right now I'm sitting in my AP US History class, and I really shouldn't be posting a journal entry right now. I'm supposed to be working on my court case research project, but I realized I'd much rather procrastinate and do that on the last night of my break! My court case is Engel vs. Vitale, a key Supreme Court case resolved on June 25th, 1962.
So here I sit, listening to a country music radio station online, writing a journal entry that probably no one will read, and thinking about why I've been in such an odd state lately.
I've really changed a lot lately, and I've gone from being someone else that I've created to finally maybe changing back into myself. It's a slow, grueling transition, but I think I'm finally beginning to make some progress.
You know, I'm not quite sure why, but for some reason I'm really scared of the holidays this year. Maybe it's because if I'm not busying myself, I'll finally start really thinking again. And for me, thinking is bad, because it leads me to philosophizing about the things that upset me the most, and that wouldn't be a very good way to spend one of my only semi-long breaks, now would it?
I'm guessing I'll be spending most of my time at the barn and with my best friend. And possibly making up all the work I didn't do last term....Oh no, I shouldn't think about that. It's just going to put a damper on my day.
I finished Hamlet! It was very exciting, and I definitely shed a few tears when he delivered his last speech. I also cried when Gertrude announced Ophelia's death. She's my favorite Shakespearean character, and someday I really hope I can play her. Oh, that reminds me, I'm kind of on a hunt for casting calls for Shakespearean plays. I have pretty high standards about productions, so so far I haven't been able to find anything, but I'll just keep my eyes open. Eventually, there will be something.
I'm going to try and get through a few episodes of Due South while I'm on break. After my grades went home, I've been grounded from watching it on weekdays. It's really a bummer, because seeing Paul Gross in his cute little police outfits is one of the highlights of my day. Anyways, I am completely obsessed, and hopefully I'll be able to get some of it out of my system over the next few weeks.
I'm also going to NYC after Christmas. I don't even know how I feel about big cities anymore! I have a very colorful personality, so it's not a matter of feeling like I'm being swallowed by the city...I don't know, maybe I just prefer peaceful solitude now? Well, I'm sure I will have fun despite my multiple personality disorder.
I'm going to go now before I get caught :D, but I will be back without fail. Never fear.