why?
alright so yesterday i saw eric and hung out with him for a little while... it was awkward. we didn't really talk much, yet we never really do because we're both shy. lol. anyways, i don't know if it was a good idea seeing him or not because it makes it harder on me. i have so many mixed feelings for him, and he confuses me a lot. i don't know if he has the same feelings back or not, but i feel like he just wants to stay away from me... i guess he doesn't want to make it harder for me for when he leaves for college. :/ i just don't get it though because he would ask me if i wanted to hang out with him, he gave me flowers and a wonderful birthday present. then out of no where he stopped talking to me. it made me really upset and confused. i guess most guys are just like that... i don't know. i still think he has deep feelings for his last girlfriend... maybe that's why he's being distant? i don't know, sometimes i just cry myself to sleep because i'm so upset and confused. i've only known him for a few months but he's a really great person and i wish i could have gotten to know him more... but i guess all good things come to an end. last night when i was at allisons, her and carrie were talking to me about this whole situation and it just made me cry... blahhh. why?? they said some things that hurt me, like 'i doubt you'll ever see him again so just get over him.' that made me really upset... but i know they want to help me, and i know they'll always be there. *sigh* maybe it's good that eric barley even talks to me anymore. but the more he doesn't talk to me, the more i miss him. :'( ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
OKAY, on the happier note... yes, i spent the night at allison's last night and it was very fun. :) we went swimming and carrie put her finger up my nose? and it bled... haha that was funny, yet gross. umm, then this morning carrie and i forced ourselves to go to driving school, and of course it was boring as hell... then i just got home and i got a letter from my dad. :/ i guess it's good to hear from him considering i haven't seen him since christmas...
OKAY, on the happier note... yes, i spent the night at allison's last night and it was very fun. :) we went swimming and carrie put her finger up my nose? and it bled... haha that was funny, yet gross. umm, then this morning carrie and i forced ourselves to go to driving school, and of course it was boring as hell... then i just got home and i got a letter from my dad. :/ i guess it's good to hear from him considering i haven't seen him since christmas...