I just want to fucking SCREAM!!!!!!!!
I've come to the conclusion that I should never have kids. I can't even stand to take care of dogs. I dunno maybe its just the fact that they won't go to the bathroom outside. I mean they go outside and go to the bathroom, then they turn around not even 10 minutes later and go in the house! What the hell. I dunno. I'm really irritated right now. I guess its not just the dogs tho. This whole living situation, not having money to eat or do laundry, the guys upstairs, the fact that I haven't talked to Jamie in a couple days. All of it is just getting on my very last nerve. I need to do something to calm down, but I'm not sure what that something is. I usually write, but I've written so much in just the past week, that I really don't have anything else to write about. I want to go somewhere. I want to do something. I don't know what. I don't think I really care at this point just anything. It would be really nice if Jamie and I went out tonight, but I know that won't happen. It can't happen. It can't happen if I don't have a way to talk to him. I'm about to start smoking again! I'm just one big ball of nerves right now! I go from being semi happy, to completely depressed, to just pissed off! All without reason. I dunno. Maybe it's the fact that I haven't had much alone time lately. I need that time. With Nick being here all the fucking time I'm not getting that! Grrrr. I think I'm going to get dress and go for a walk. That sounds like a good idea!