(no subject)
i'm exhausted
i'm sick
i'm pushed to the limit
i'm miserable
i'm lost
i'm worthless
i have no purpose
i've failed
i lost the only thing that ever gave me a purpose
a reason to live
a reason to be
i ruined it
i ruined my life
i ruined yours
i ruined theirs before it could even ever begin
i'm lost
i don't think i can do it anymore
any of it
i'm afraid to change
but i don't think i can stay this way anymore
you fixed me
you gave me my purpose
and then,
i took away yours
I RUINED YOUR LIFE
IT'S ALL MY FAULT
and i'm TERRIFIED
FUCKIN TERRIFIED
that if we do this again
i'll only ruin it all over again
