permanence

[imagine831]

every night as i lie awake
i wait 'till death
no use waiting 'till morning
for morning is fleeting
morning comes and goes

as life swirls around me
i grasp for permanence
something to ground myself
but nothing is permanent
not even death

pain can fade away
people come and go
when all is said and done
and life has left me alone
the only thing to count on is myself

as i reach around i come up empty
nothing to grab
i can't find anything to tell me who i am
always contingent on something. someone
i'm no one.nothing when no ones there

that's something i can count on
even in death i will amount to nothing
in death i will be alone
nothing will define me
except permanence in loneliness