But... Peter Pan is miles away.
so, Jerry and I have our own song. I don't know why I post silly entries like this, but I guess it's because this is Englewood, I just have my friends and I have nothing exciting to talk about. Well, anyway, as for the song, I don't know why he calls it ours because it's an aftermath break up "I miss you" song, but maybe because 1.) We both like the song, and 2.) We've dealt with missing an ex-love or something. I don't know, but yeah. The lyrics hit me though... =X
"Better Than Me"
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
*******
Jerry: "I loved your Myspace Top thing."
Me: "Aww yay! I'm glad..."
*Silence for a moment*
Me: "Well, you know if you really weren't gay I'd date you. You're alot like me..."
Jerry: "AWWW I know... I love you though!"
Me: "Yeah, but unfortunately, no one wants me and there's no one I really want... In a way I feel unpretty or something."
Jerry: "Aww, that's not true."
Me: "Yeah, I know I couldn't be a lesbian though. I thought about it, and I don't think I can see myself kissing another girl. I thought I could, but the thought of that freaks me out."
Jerry: "Yeah, being gay isn't easy. It's alot harder than being straight."
Hmm... Yeah, maybe it's not me... Maybe I have to be patient, which is really hard because I don't like being lonely, but it sucks how guys these days go for looks/clicks (Clicks as in same trend of style or something you know; emo's with emo's, Scene kids with Scene kids, and yeah, you get it). There's no one I'm attracted to only because I know I'm not exactly what guys want... I want that spark and feeling of bliss with someone like me. I have awesome taste in music and movies, but one problem, I DON'T have the clothing, I DON'T have the black and the blonde mixed short hair, and I DON'T have the facial piercings (lip, Monroe (DID have that...), Septum). I feel like if I had ALL of that, I'd get a ton of guys after me because I'd be EXACTLY like them and everyone else; A fucking ZOMBIE. So, yeah. I suppose in the meantime, I just continue waiting and be single for a year. I hate when everyone tells you "it'll EVENTUALLY happen." Yeah, I know this, thanks. Eventually means a long time for the most part. *Sigh* Oh well. I guess I just have to try and not worry about dating anyone...
"Better Than Me"
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
*******
Jerry: "I loved your Myspace Top thing."
Me: "Aww yay! I'm glad..."
*Silence for a moment*
Me: "Well, you know if you really weren't gay I'd date you. You're alot like me..."
Jerry: "AWWW I know... I love you though!"
Me: "Yeah, but unfortunately, no one wants me and there's no one I really want... In a way I feel unpretty or something."
Jerry: "Aww, that's not true."
Me: "Yeah, I know I couldn't be a lesbian though. I thought about it, and I don't think I can see myself kissing another girl. I thought I could, but the thought of that freaks me out."
Jerry: "Yeah, being gay isn't easy. It's alot harder than being straight."
Hmm... Yeah, maybe it's not me... Maybe I have to be patient, which is really hard because I don't like being lonely, but it sucks how guys these days go for looks/clicks (Clicks as in same trend of style or something you know; emo's with emo's, Scene kids with Scene kids, and yeah, you get it). There's no one I'm attracted to only because I know I'm not exactly what guys want... I want that spark and feeling of bliss with someone like me. I have awesome taste in music and movies, but one problem, I DON'T have the clothing, I DON'T have the black and the blonde mixed short hair, and I DON'T have the facial piercings (lip, Monroe (DID have that...), Septum). I feel like if I had ALL of that, I'd get a ton of guys after me because I'd be EXACTLY like them and everyone else; A fucking ZOMBIE. So, yeah. I suppose in the meantime, I just continue waiting and be single for a year. I hate when everyone tells you "it'll EVENTUALLY happen." Yeah, I know this, thanks. Eventually means a long time for the most part. *Sigh* Oh well. I guess I just have to try and not worry about dating anyone...