i havent posted in a while
I feel like shit right now me and Devin broke up, its not like i didn't see this coming it just really sucks. At first i we just decided to brake up because we figured it would be "better" if we did, and we were still gunna be friends. Then he found out about some really dumb shit that doesn't even really matter and flipped out about and told me that he never wants to talk to me again and that the next time he sees me that he is gunna punch me in the face. Now i just feel like shit because i remember what good friends we used to be and i could kill myself for ever ruining that. And whats even worse is that we have all the same friends, and im just so scared that he sees me hes gunna freak out, and i really don't want him to hate me. I just cant believe how much i have fucked up my life and i really don't know how to pick up the pieces. I just cant get over the fact that i wont see him, or be able to talk to him and i know it doesn't really matter any ways because things can never be the way that they used to be. I just feel like i burned all my bridges and i don't know where to begin. Well a great start would for me to get out of this shit hole town, but thats not going to happen for a while. And i know that never ever want to be with anyone ever again i know that really sounds dumb but im just so sick of loosing people. I really don't know if its me and i just push people away or something but i cant take getting hurt again or loosing some one i really care about. I mean i spent every minute of every day with him and now im just surpost to forget about him.... I guess im just gunna try to go to sleep.