back to reality
okay guys, Amanda is back... and there is a lot to say.
First thing's first. For those who don't know, I flew to D.C. last weekend with my dad to see the sites for the first time ever. I tell you, for only being there Friday morning to Sunday afternoon, I sure saw A LOT. Here's a list of everything:
1. Museum of Natural History (Smithsonian) 2. Museum of American History (Smithsonian) 3. Union Station 4. Arlington Cemetary 5. JFK gravesite (at Arlington) 6. Robert E. Lee's old homestead (also part of Arlington) 7. the Capitol 8. The White House 9. Dwight D. Eisenhower Executive Building 10. Renwark Art Gallery 11. Thomas Jefferson Memorial 12. FDR Memorial 13. the Lincoln Memorial 14. the Washington Monument 15. Vietnam Memorial 16. Korean War Memorial 17. World War II Memorial 18. Air and Space Museum (Smithsonian) 19. National Art Gallery...
i think that's everything, I'm probably forgetting something... i'll have to keep thinking about it. I saw the eternal flame at Arlington, it's right next to JFK's gravesite... and it literally never goes out. Oh oh OH, how could I forget- I saw the changing of the guard ceremony at the Tomb of the Unknown. Wow, it's such a big deal. It's very inspiring though, to think of all the millions of Americans who died in the wars that no one knows of... to have a memorial in their honor. Amazing.
This was interesting too, out of curioscity I did a search to see if there was anyone on the Vietnam Memorial Wall with my same last name. Turns out, there was one name, from a nearby city in Georgia... an actual family relative. Something like my grandfather's uncle's brother or something. Crazy, but I found his name on the wall. 4 section W and line 21... there it was. Talk about completely unexpected. So it was a great trip and I really learned a lot... it's a trip i think everyone should make sometime during their life.
Now... on to more serious matters.
Lately, I feel a lot of anger? Why you ask? Why should such an optimistic person be angry? Well, i'll tell you. First, I'm angry because my boyfriend called out of the blue last Wednesday night to break up with me. The result of that conversation... well, even I don't know. I might be an ex-girlfriend to him now, but I wouldn't know... we didn't really get to finish talking about it. Second, 6 days later, I have not heard from him at all. After coaxing mutual friend Craig to call and check in on him and receiving no response, I send him a text. The reply was simple:
"Hey, my grandfather's health took a dive, so I am up in Delaware and New Jersey visiting him and other family for a long while. Hope all is well. Talk to you later."
...now, some of you may look at this and say "whoa, this girl is overreacting"... but you just don't understand. For six days, the craziest ideas went through my head. For six days I thought that he had already gotten over me, and that he didn't even care to talk to me anymore. This is Robert... the boy who said that he had fallen for me. He called to break up with me, and then I don't hear from him at all. And, to date, that was all I heard from him, I sent him more messages and got no response. It's now been well over a week since the last time we spoke.
You know what, I'm just sad. I'm sad that he didn't even care enough to tell me that he was going out of town, or even just to say that he wouldn't be able to talk for a while. I got nothing, you don't even treat friends like that. Even Rebecca called him a few days ago and he never responded to her either. I feel completely useless... and my heart is just crumbling.
crumbling... and not quickly.
I keep thinking about how he made me promise that the last time we saw each other, it wouldn't be the last time ever. That it wasn't goodbye, it was just so long for now. It sounds more and more like a lie. I don't want to be mad or spiteful, but this just isn't fair. I don't like being treated like this, but I still can't help it. I still have strong feelings for this guy.
What the heck is wrong with me?
This is so frustrating... I'm going to go watch Gilmore Girls.
First thing's first. For those who don't know, I flew to D.C. last weekend with my dad to see the sites for the first time ever. I tell you, for only being there Friday morning to Sunday afternoon, I sure saw A LOT. Here's a list of everything:
1. Museum of Natural History (Smithsonian) 2. Museum of American History (Smithsonian) 3. Union Station 4. Arlington Cemetary 5. JFK gravesite (at Arlington) 6. Robert E. Lee's old homestead (also part of Arlington) 7. the Capitol 8. The White House 9. Dwight D. Eisenhower Executive Building 10. Renwark Art Gallery 11. Thomas Jefferson Memorial 12. FDR Memorial 13. the Lincoln Memorial 14. the Washington Monument 15. Vietnam Memorial 16. Korean War Memorial 17. World War II Memorial 18. Air and Space Museum (Smithsonian) 19. National Art Gallery...
i think that's everything, I'm probably forgetting something... i'll have to keep thinking about it. I saw the eternal flame at Arlington, it's right next to JFK's gravesite... and it literally never goes out. Oh oh OH, how could I forget- I saw the changing of the guard ceremony at the Tomb of the Unknown. Wow, it's such a big deal. It's very inspiring though, to think of all the millions of Americans who died in the wars that no one knows of... to have a memorial in their honor. Amazing.
This was interesting too, out of curioscity I did a search to see if there was anyone on the Vietnam Memorial Wall with my same last name. Turns out, there was one name, from a nearby city in Georgia... an actual family relative. Something like my grandfather's uncle's brother or something. Crazy, but I found his name on the wall. 4 section W and line 21... there it was. Talk about completely unexpected. So it was a great trip and I really learned a lot... it's a trip i think everyone should make sometime during their life.
Now... on to more serious matters.
Lately, I feel a lot of anger? Why you ask? Why should such an optimistic person be angry? Well, i'll tell you. First, I'm angry because my boyfriend called out of the blue last Wednesday night to break up with me. The result of that conversation... well, even I don't know. I might be an ex-girlfriend to him now, but I wouldn't know... we didn't really get to finish talking about it. Second, 6 days later, I have not heard from him at all. After coaxing mutual friend Craig to call and check in on him and receiving no response, I send him a text. The reply was simple:
"Hey, my grandfather's health took a dive, so I am up in Delaware and New Jersey visiting him and other family for a long while. Hope all is well. Talk to you later."
...now, some of you may look at this and say "whoa, this girl is overreacting"... but you just don't understand. For six days, the craziest ideas went through my head. For six days I thought that he had already gotten over me, and that he didn't even care to talk to me anymore. This is Robert... the boy who said that he had fallen for me. He called to break up with me, and then I don't hear from him at all. And, to date, that was all I heard from him, I sent him more messages and got no response. It's now been well over a week since the last time we spoke.
You know what, I'm just sad. I'm sad that he didn't even care enough to tell me that he was going out of town, or even just to say that he wouldn't be able to talk for a while. I got nothing, you don't even treat friends like that. Even Rebecca called him a few days ago and he never responded to her either. I feel completely useless... and my heart is just crumbling.
crumbling... and not quickly.
I keep thinking about how he made me promise that the last time we saw each other, it wouldn't be the last time ever. That it wasn't goodbye, it was just so long for now. It sounds more and more like a lie. I don't want to be mad or spiteful, but this just isn't fair. I don't like being treated like this, but I still can't help it. I still have strong feelings for this guy.
What the heck is wrong with me?
This is so frustrating... I'm going to go watch Gilmore Girls.