it's been a while... again
Well, I don't seem to be very good at keeping up with everything recently.
I mean, it's all becoming routine for me, but I forget if everyone else is caught up or not. So... the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing... it's weird to me. I'm so used to going out on my own and not having to worry what someone else is doing. I haven't completely adjusted to that yet... but I think I might be getting used to it.
And time is going by so fast these days. It's already been two weeks as of last Thursday. Where is all this time going? It makes everything feel like it's all moving faster than it really is. And me in this whole thing... I still don't know what I want. Everything happens so quickly. And I keep reminding myself that Robert won't be here come next year. I guess it's already hoping for too much to even be bothered by that since it is so far away. I can't seem to understand what I really want out of all of this though. I'm being treated so well... i almost don't get it.
I'm probably just being crazy talking about it like this, but I just don't understand. And here's something that's maybe a little scary... the "l" word came up. Not spoken, but... well, that is complicated to explain. I'm still trying to get a grasp on that. I think one of the things here is that I get so caught up with the moment and what's going on with everyone else, that I forget what I, personally, am going for. I don't want things to go so fast... especially if things are going to stay good.
Hah, ironic isn't it? Things either go too fast or too slow. I guess I'm the one who should be making adjustments though, instead of expecting someone else to. Truthfully, I think I'm ready to go home and get away from everything for a while. Life here is becoming repetitive again... and I know how much that annoys me. Thanksgiving break isn't too far away though, and I need to see my family again- Mom especially.
Well, here's some good news too- I got an answer that I'd been wondering about for a long time. Well, not that long... but it was one of the questions that I was too afraid to ask myself. The answer was better than I expected... a lot better in fact. Now, here's the trick, if you want to know the question- you'll have to ask me... cuz it's a little too embarrassing to post here. I mean, not that I have a whole lot to hide, but still... even this is a little much.
Okay, well that was my little update after an extremely disappointing football game. GSU's first division loss- 21 to 22 at Furman. Very upsetting, we could have won that game. Oh well, can't win them all I guess. Anyway, I'm about to go try and figure out what are plans are for tonight... and then maybe i'll be back later on. Take care everyone.
I mean, it's all becoming routine for me, but I forget if everyone else is caught up or not. So... the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing... it's weird to me. I'm so used to going out on my own and not having to worry what someone else is doing. I haven't completely adjusted to that yet... but I think I might be getting used to it.
And time is going by so fast these days. It's already been two weeks as of last Thursday. Where is all this time going? It makes everything feel like it's all moving faster than it really is. And me in this whole thing... I still don't know what I want. Everything happens so quickly. And I keep reminding myself that Robert won't be here come next year. I guess it's already hoping for too much to even be bothered by that since it is so far away. I can't seem to understand what I really want out of all of this though. I'm being treated so well... i almost don't get it.
I'm probably just being crazy talking about it like this, but I just don't understand. And here's something that's maybe a little scary... the "l" word came up. Not spoken, but... well, that is complicated to explain. I'm still trying to get a grasp on that. I think one of the things here is that I get so caught up with the moment and what's going on with everyone else, that I forget what I, personally, am going for. I don't want things to go so fast... especially if things are going to stay good.
Hah, ironic isn't it? Things either go too fast or too slow. I guess I'm the one who should be making adjustments though, instead of expecting someone else to. Truthfully, I think I'm ready to go home and get away from everything for a while. Life here is becoming repetitive again... and I know how much that annoys me. Thanksgiving break isn't too far away though, and I need to see my family again- Mom especially.
Well, here's some good news too- I got an answer that I'd been wondering about for a long time. Well, not that long... but it was one of the questions that I was too afraid to ask myself. The answer was better than I expected... a lot better in fact. Now, here's the trick, if you want to know the question- you'll have to ask me... cuz it's a little too embarrassing to post here. I mean, not that I have a whole lot to hide, but still... even this is a little much.
Okay, well that was my little update after an extremely disappointing football game. GSU's first division loss- 21 to 22 at Furman. Very upsetting, we could have won that game. Oh well, can't win them all I guess. Anyway, I'm about to go try and figure out what are plans are for tonight... and then maybe i'll be back later on. Take care everyone.