The Miserable Birthday.
I like the title.. Ah.
So I woke up quite early,to freshen up a lot and go out with the only friend who lives close to me but it seems that she didnt have any more money than $3 so that was a problem for her.. That's ok,she said when her mom would get to her house,she'd give money and give us a ride,I was fine with that,it was nice actually,it's been a long time since I've gone out somewhere nice for my birthday but...as miserable is part of the title..
It was getting even more late..I still kept the hope and idea that we might be able to go,I popped open a book and layed on my bed reading with the phone right next to me,just hoping,just waiting even though I get disappointed all the time,I got a phone call,my only one of the day. No other family members called me to wish me a happy birthday..Understood.I fell asleep for a short time,without the fan on I didnt care,I was tired. But I couldnt control myself with the phone call,I leaked. I continued reading my book and asked my sister a couple of times if I could use the computer. Depression or anger makes one want to write out and many are lucky that they have quick access to their pc to write it all out countlessly but I must wait and even then I forget all I wanted to put.
My friend calls me at the last minutes of 4pm just to tell me that she didnt get the money anyway, so..all that time that I could have gone out with my mom instead,wasting on waiting for her reply just for it to be "Some other day" As always. I leave the house just to accompany my mom to the supermarket,come back and just layed on my parents bed,reading next to the lamp,my mom came by checking how I was and even she just said "Boring birthday.." Yes,I know.
No party,I havent had a party for years and never one for me.Any party I can remember had 3 birthdays crammed together,my sister's,my dad's and mine.Even on the cake.
No cake.
No presents.
This is the same birthday as before,and the one before that and on. I just forget every year and hope for a better one
Now Im done with this miserable entry,how bothersome x(
Thanks to everyone though who wished me a happy birthday,thank you <3
So I woke up quite early,to freshen up a lot and go out with the only friend who lives close to me but it seems that she didnt have any more money than $3 so that was a problem for her.. That's ok,she said when her mom would get to her house,she'd give money and give us a ride,I was fine with that,it was nice actually,it's been a long time since I've gone out somewhere nice for my birthday but...as miserable is part of the title..
It was getting even more late..I still kept the hope and idea that we might be able to go,I popped open a book and layed on my bed reading with the phone right next to me,just hoping,just waiting even though I get disappointed all the time,I got a phone call,my only one of the day. No other family members called me to wish me a happy birthday..Understood.I fell asleep for a short time,without the fan on I didnt care,I was tired. But I couldnt control myself with the phone call,I leaked. I continued reading my book and asked my sister a couple of times if I could use the computer. Depression or anger makes one want to write out and many are lucky that they have quick access to their pc to write it all out countlessly but I must wait and even then I forget all I wanted to put.
My friend calls me at the last minutes of 4pm just to tell me that she didnt get the money anyway, so..all that time that I could have gone out with my mom instead,wasting on waiting for her reply just for it to be "Some other day" As always. I leave the house just to accompany my mom to the supermarket,come back and just layed on my parents bed,reading next to the lamp,my mom came by checking how I was and even she just said "Boring birthday.." Yes,I know.
No party,I havent had a party for years and never one for me.Any party I can remember had 3 birthdays crammed together,my sister's,my dad's and mine.Even on the cake.
No cake.
No presents.
This is the same birthday as before,and the one before that and on. I just forget every year and hope for a better one
Now Im done with this miserable entry,how bothersome x(
Thanks to everyone though who wished me a happy birthday,thank you <3