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a new year! 22 yrs old! very recently and unexpectedly unemployed!
it's been awhile since i posted on here. no offense to alec and jason becos those righteous dudes always have interesting posts, i just wish there was more action overall on here- so heres my contribution. totally busted my ass earlier snowboarding with my younger sibs, and it was fun as hell. i oughta do that kinda stuff more, little kids know how to have a damn good time. i wanna be around them more too, free of intoxication. i see them growing older and following the same tremulous routes that my older brothers and i have experienced. it's crazy times in this day and age, and it makes me wonder what the youth has to believe in. they get into drugs and sex younger and younger. now don't get me wrong, i love drugs and sex. (some drugs, and some sex that is) it's just tough to see where people end up when they take these things too far. i'm glad my mom kicks ass at raising and loving badass kids.
ooole kevbo headed out west with his sugar mama. he called me last night from a minus the bear show in seattle, and it sounded badass. he seems to be doing really well for himself- despite his lack of money and a formal education. some people can just get by on charm i guess. and yunno, not everyone values/feels the same about things like money and knowledge. if the festival scene has taught me anything its that very different people exist all around us, all over the world, and that we don't all have to conform to society's norms if it isn't for us. we just are, and continue to exist, whether we have car insurance, or are students, or have any direction. i live, like alot of people i know, not really knowing my future after this wknd. but i'm stoked to be on my own unique journey. ya gotta respect other people's journeys
music stuff is going well. and all this unemployment time is excellent- a great opportunity to pursue uncharted terrain with my jam-mates. had a real interesting experience last week jamming with a buncha kids. we had all eaten mushrooms, and immediately jammed after eating them. i began feeling exceptionally strange and excellent about 15 minutes in- and the jam lumbered along purposefully for what seemed like ages. my whole body felt completely engaged in the task at hand, and it obeyed my minds slightest whim, creating rhythms and fills effortlessly and smooth. we worked together as one collective mind, as though embroidering an exceptionally colorful garment all together. there were times i remember hammering away and not even being entirely certain that what i was doing was acceptable or normal for jam drums, and not caring in the least. there were times i thought that i might explode because what i was experiencing was so epic. - i feared that maybe when we listened back to the jam it might be nonsense- but sure enough it turned out to be probably the finest jam i've participated in for some months. sounds really crisp too, couldn't be more excited that we recorded it. afterwards we listened to an old vinyl of Yes's Fragile and watched phantasia, which i would really recommend to anyone in any state. beautiful
btw gogol bordello put on a craaazy new years show. what a weird and excellent band, more for the live setting than for recordings though.
i'm also feeling kind of conflicted in the way of love and relationships. i been diggin the single life, i enjoy being a .. hmm.. manwhore.. i guess. but you always crave something more. thought i might be able to settle down for a bit with this girl tajah i've been seeing, but when we brought up putting a label on it and making it official, she completely went crazy and scared the shit out of me with her weirdness. this is a girl who prior to this time hadn't really demonstrated any drama or baggage to me- but she sure shook me the other night. she was pretty drunk and sayin some of those things that you say when you're drunk- yunno, honest things that bother you that you normally would have kept to yourself? everything she said made me believe that things arent as ideal as i thought. makes me foresee trouble. and the truth is, i can't stop pursuing other interests. and by interests, i mean babes. leads me to believe i'm still not ready, and to make her think any different would be to hurt her when things don't work out. i dunno
news! just read in the paper. Andrew monahan got robbed and stabbed in his home the other day along with ryan bowers and nelson argula. thats crazy! i feel bad for andy, he's having a rough time. like damn, no one should have dto go thru this stuff. i haven't talked to him since like the 8th grade, but he seemed likeable enough to me. and this other 21 yr old stroud kid just got locked up for tryin to rob a sciota bank. AND the bville KNBT got robbed on tuesday. what the hell is goin on around here? i guess the cop increase was pertinent
damn i'm ultra snowed in here. it seems that as bad as the poconos can get in the winter, my house, and my yard and my driveway are always 1000 times worse than the surrounding area. i could be stuck here for days.
i'd like to hang out with some old friends
feel free to leave lavish comments about any and all topics here, i'd like some good reading material. left my book 'DMT: The Spirit Realm' in philly
it's been awhile since i posted on here. no offense to alec and jason becos those righteous dudes always have interesting posts, i just wish there was more action overall on here- so heres my contribution. totally busted my ass earlier snowboarding with my younger sibs, and it was fun as hell. i oughta do that kinda stuff more, little kids know how to have a damn good time. i wanna be around them more too, free of intoxication. i see them growing older and following the same tremulous routes that my older brothers and i have experienced. it's crazy times in this day and age, and it makes me wonder what the youth has to believe in. they get into drugs and sex younger and younger. now don't get me wrong, i love drugs and sex. (some drugs, and some sex that is) it's just tough to see where people end up when they take these things too far. i'm glad my mom kicks ass at raising and loving badass kids.
ooole kevbo headed out west with his sugar mama. he called me last night from a minus the bear show in seattle, and it sounded badass. he seems to be doing really well for himself- despite his lack of money and a formal education. some people can just get by on charm i guess. and yunno, not everyone values/feels the same about things like money and knowledge. if the festival scene has taught me anything its that very different people exist all around us, all over the world, and that we don't all have to conform to society's norms if it isn't for us. we just are, and continue to exist, whether we have car insurance, or are students, or have any direction. i live, like alot of people i know, not really knowing my future after this wknd. but i'm stoked to be on my own unique journey. ya gotta respect other people's journeys
music stuff is going well. and all this unemployment time is excellent- a great opportunity to pursue uncharted terrain with my jam-mates. had a real interesting experience last week jamming with a buncha kids. we had all eaten mushrooms, and immediately jammed after eating them. i began feeling exceptionally strange and excellent about 15 minutes in- and the jam lumbered along purposefully for what seemed like ages. my whole body felt completely engaged in the task at hand, and it obeyed my minds slightest whim, creating rhythms and fills effortlessly and smooth. we worked together as one collective mind, as though embroidering an exceptionally colorful garment all together. there were times i remember hammering away and not even being entirely certain that what i was doing was acceptable or normal for jam drums, and not caring in the least. there were times i thought that i might explode because what i was experiencing was so epic. - i feared that maybe when we listened back to the jam it might be nonsense- but sure enough it turned out to be probably the finest jam i've participated in for some months. sounds really crisp too, couldn't be more excited that we recorded it. afterwards we listened to an old vinyl of Yes's Fragile and watched phantasia, which i would really recommend to anyone in any state. beautiful
btw gogol bordello put on a craaazy new years show. what a weird and excellent band, more for the live setting than for recordings though.
i'm also feeling kind of conflicted in the way of love and relationships. i been diggin the single life, i enjoy being a .. hmm.. manwhore.. i guess. but you always crave something more. thought i might be able to settle down for a bit with this girl tajah i've been seeing, but when we brought up putting a label on it and making it official, she completely went crazy and scared the shit out of me with her weirdness. this is a girl who prior to this time hadn't really demonstrated any drama or baggage to me- but she sure shook me the other night. she was pretty drunk and sayin some of those things that you say when you're drunk- yunno, honest things that bother you that you normally would have kept to yourself? everything she said made me believe that things arent as ideal as i thought. makes me foresee trouble. and the truth is, i can't stop pursuing other interests. and by interests, i mean babes. leads me to believe i'm still not ready, and to make her think any different would be to hurt her when things don't work out. i dunno
news! just read in the paper. Andrew monahan got robbed and stabbed in his home the other day along with ryan bowers and nelson argula. thats crazy! i feel bad for andy, he's having a rough time. like damn, no one should have dto go thru this stuff. i haven't talked to him since like the 8th grade, but he seemed likeable enough to me. and this other 21 yr old stroud kid just got locked up for tryin to rob a sciota bank. AND the bville KNBT got robbed on tuesday. what the hell is goin on around here? i guess the cop increase was pertinent
damn i'm ultra snowed in here. it seems that as bad as the poconos can get in the winter, my house, and my yard and my driveway are always 1000 times worse than the surrounding area. i could be stuck here for days.
i'd like to hang out with some old friends
feel free to leave lavish comments about any and all topics here, i'd like some good reading material. left my book 'DMT: The Spirit Realm' in philly