Future Prospects
Life is not good at the moment so I find myself wanting to pull up stakes and walk away. The problem is that I cannot see through the haze of time into the future. Making matters worse I know not which way I would like to go. I look around and I see people with many more responsibilities than I do and it seems to me that they are far more trapped than I have ever been at any point in my life but they are happy. The only times that I feel any spark of happiness is when I am attempting to accomplish something (usually something damn near impossible if not out right impossible). The whole "I must achieve this goal" mentality takes over but even that is wearing very thin.