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well yall this is the last week of school!! we did it!! we actually made it!! i had my doughts but i over came them! just b/c ill be in theory 1 again doenst mean anything!! i think i would be a much better student if i would take my friggin meds!!! lol!! im going to take a theory lab test today and a piano exam and something else! i love being a music major! it would be better if i didnt have to take english and math and crap liek that! tell me when im i gonna multiply a polynomial>???? answer that would be never!!! okay get this yesterday i was really upset things were comming unglued! my pastor called me up to the front of the church and was like your suffering freom depression!! i was like woah how did u know. then i had to think about it! but it made me kind of analyz my self and be like what am i upset about and i thought and i broke down in tears! he prayed for me and so did the rest of the church. its an awsome feeling to be prayed for! but then i was like analizing myself for the rest of the day. i went home and fell into a real big cleaning faze. i cleant my room!!! *shock* then i began to cry mom fixed dinner i cried i went to work i cried i had to go home b/c i was crying!! doesnt make walmart look very friendly if they have an associate crying!! so then i go home and sit in my moms lap and she rocks me till i fall asleep!!! my mom is 60 yrs old and had a bone diease but yet she still rocked her big fat baby!! so i slept in my moms lap for about 2 hrs then woke up and felt bad b/c i had subdude her to being under my big ole body. but i started crying cause i felt bad. so i wentin my room and tryed to study but fell short and decided to watch harry potter !!!! well then my friend ben called and was like hey wanna come over after i get done studying i was like yeah so i get in the shower and wait for him to call back by this time im feeling like crap again and i get in my pj's i start to fall asleep and the bam he calls so i have to throw on some clothes and go over there! i get there and we talk and we make fun of each other like always! hes great he has the cuttest brown eyes and a pretty smile! we wrestled and picked on each other some more till it was time for me to go home! i walk in the door at 1:30 moms like i dont belive u went to the ferg to study ( i was like crap busted) i was like your right i went to a friends house and talked and then she still didnt belive me she was like i just hope if u r doing anything illegal u dont get caught i was like what the crap was that about! i went in my room and watched the extras to harry potter casue i felt awful. mom woke me up at 5 this morning like 30 mins after i fell asleep and was like micklynn if u were doing drugs or anything i hope u think about what God thinks abouyt that! i was like mom i didnt have sex i didnt do drugs i didnt do any of that crap! she was like i have noticed a change in u, you are eating more and sleeping less and always crying and stay in your room. i was like i cant sleep i have nightmares and i eat b/c my body is trying to make energy i stay in my room b/c its my room and im content there. but anyways after awhile she belived me and was like i just dont want u to rewn your life. i want to see great things from u and all i was think great things from me would be passing a test! lol. but anyways we made up and everythings better, but i think she still thinks im doing drugs again!! but im not but anyways a new light!!! umm theres a really hott dude sitting next to me ( hes not ben ) but hes hott !!!!!!!