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Today was good
i think
I stayed after school...and i noticed i like...NEVER talk when im around nick
but im always scared im gonna say soemthing stupid...
me and porsha came up with a code word for ...this thing
its playing chess...lol I LOVE IT!
anywyas...Is laughing after kissing soeone a bad sign??? like not laughing but smiling alot...im kinda scared...i mean if im THAT bad of a kisser
grr...im...sooo friggen paranoid...but according to heather i ALWAYS SAY THE WRONG THING so whats the point of talking...ill just screw myself over
since ive been going out with nick ive had non-stop good days
except for little moments...but when your happy litle things seem so much bigger...like today..i told justin i fucking hated him and i ddint mean it..he was just pissing me off...usually hes awesome
and i dont hate him
he one of my good friends...so i need to appologise to my best..but also its hard to be friends and be nice to him when everyone (including my boyfriend) thinks i "like" him and rubs it in and like...refuses to listen to me when i say i DONT LIKE HIM!!! so...i dunno...everything got to me...i dont know what to say when i appologise tomarow tho...cuz "im sorry" is so...blah...
o well
i dunno i dont act like myself (around nick) and it makes me mad
yeah im just venting...sorry for bitching about nothing...
anyways...comment!!!!!
i think
I stayed after school...and i noticed i like...NEVER talk when im around nick
but im always scared im gonna say soemthing stupid...
me and porsha came up with a code word for ...this thing
its playing chess...lol I LOVE IT!
anywyas...Is laughing after kissing soeone a bad sign??? like not laughing but smiling alot...im kinda scared...i mean if im THAT bad of a kisser
grr...im...sooo friggen paranoid...but according to heather i ALWAYS SAY THE WRONG THING so whats the point of talking...ill just screw myself over
since ive been going out with nick ive had non-stop good days
except for little moments...but when your happy litle things seem so much bigger...like today..i told justin i fucking hated him and i ddint mean it..he was just pissing me off...usually hes awesome
and i dont hate him
he one of my good friends...so i need to appologise to my best..but also its hard to be friends and be nice to him when everyone (including my boyfriend) thinks i "like" him and rubs it in and like...refuses to listen to me when i say i DONT LIKE HIM!!! so...i dunno...everything got to me...i dont know what to say when i appologise tomarow tho...cuz "im sorry" is so...blah...
o well
i dunno i dont act like myself (around nick) and it makes me mad
yeah im just venting...sorry for bitching about nothing...
anyways...comment!!!!!