014. You'll Be Special To Me FOREVER.
Mm, so yes I decided to go to sleep tonight. But I have to unload a few things from this head of mine. There isn't much going on in my life. I'm still the same sleepless, over worked, procrastinating, lazy-ass girl that I've always been.......NOT.
There's ONE big change. ONE, yet it's far greater than I could ever ask for.
I HAVE HER. (Most probably you know who are, the icon is the key~)
Seriously, she has...warmed the coldest heart I could ever have, break through my silent defense and get me to talk. Talk not just about anything...but to talk about me. I swear she's beyond special. Beyond anything. I shouldn't write too much here though, there's still a Christmas Card that I have to write. Ke~
I am...beyond thankful for her. Though sometimes I fear that I cling onto her too much. I hope I'm not stressing her out. Reading that entry just made me sad. I know she doesn't want to forget it but I hope that whenever she remembers it, I want to be the one to feel the pain for her, can't I? Can't I just take the bullet for her and be the one hurting and not her? I don't mind. I have gotten used to pain.
Mm, after reading it, I found myself thinking of my greatest FAIL. A failure I can't say I regret the results now but still.
Okay I believe I'm not making sense. I'm sleepy so I will sleep. It's 2am anyway.....
There's ONE big change. ONE, yet it's far greater than I could ever ask for.
I HAVE HER. (Most probably you know who are, the icon is the key~)
Seriously, she has...warmed the coldest heart I could ever have, break through my silent defense and get me to talk. Talk not just about anything...but to talk about me. I swear she's beyond special. Beyond anything. I shouldn't write too much here though, there's still a Christmas Card that I have to write. Ke~
I am...beyond thankful for her. Though sometimes I fear that I cling onto her too much. I hope I'm not stressing her out. Reading that entry just made me sad. I know she doesn't want to forget it but I hope that whenever she remembers it, I want to be the one to feel the pain for her, can't I? Can't I just take the bullet for her and be the one hurting and not her? I don't mind. I have gotten used to pain.
Mm, after reading it, I found myself thinking of my greatest FAIL. A failure I can't say I regret the results now but still.
Okay I believe I'm not making sense. I'm sleepy so I will sleep. It's 2am anyway.....