and now im having my.... moment

[imadowdow]

yea right now i feel so stupid for being stupid haha... im in the i dont give a shit mood... umm... do you think... do you really think, that i have something wrong with me? i think i do... i obsess over things sometimes. for reals... sometimes a tad bit too much. when i do that, i feel pathetic. man im so hungry and now my head is starting to hurt a little bit. i kind of just want to get christmas eve and christmas over. i dunno why... its like i dont want to go back to school because i dont want to do hwk... and i spend too much money over there... but at the same time, i dont want to be here... its boring, its lame... im tired of being cooped up in my house. i cant even leave because things that will allow me to leave require money such as the movies or going out to eat... that i dont have... i officially have $80.  damn... im in the stink hole dammit. gah... i am starting to get a head ache... not cool... i think im just going to put my pathetic little self to sleep... you know take a nap, wake up, eat like a cow and hope that my gifts wont be as crappy and useless to me as they usually are... and by that i mean the gift i get from the secret santa... the other ones are ok... but like...  there are so many things i need right now that anything that is not on my list of things i need is useless to me... garrr....

lame lame lame... i think im going to make my own dance... thats how bored i am, that is, AFTER i take my nappy nappy nap :)