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what a shocker. ryan was gay. hello, ryan ross, was gay. alright so it didn't really shock me all that much. he'd never really been into all the crap that spencer and jon were into but still. to know that all those years you'd talked about girls and stuff that the only kid you could confide in wasn't ever interested in girls. like at all. wierd. he looked up at me, those auburn eyes burning deeply in fear and agony. i had no idea that being gay was such a big deal. i mean i figured that it would be hard for someone like ryan to admit but still, they way he looked at me made tears suddenly roll from my own eyes. as if i was going through this. in a way i was. but ryan had already figured out that he was GAY, and i wasn't sure what the hell i was. i did like girls, not on a personal level because they were quite catty, but i mean, they gave you a certain satisfaction. but boys, boys weren't catty, but not only that, boys were sweet, and just... i found them more attractive. wait. maybe i am...gay.
I held him as he burried his head back into my chest.
"ry. it's okay...shhh. its fine."
"brendon, stop saying that, it isn't fine, its gross. and everyone will hate me for it."
"shut up. ryan, listen. i know for a fact that not EVERYONE will hate you for it. dude, you'll always be ryan. gay or not. and people love you 'cause your ryan."
"yeahbut...this changes everything, it's going to change me...us...the band. those kids will stop supporting us if it leaks."
"it wont. and they wont. well if they're real fans they wont." and was it just me or did ryan just say "us"? he did, i knew it. OHEMGEE. this was kind of awesome. but so incredibly scary. i mumbled something under my breath unaware that he could hear it.
"what?"
Um...crap. he'd hear me and before i could stop myself i'd repeated the things i'd mumbled.
"iloveyou."
shttttttt.
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haha. cliffhangers again.
I held him as he burried his head back into my chest.
"ry. it's okay...shhh. its fine."
"brendon, stop saying that, it isn't fine, its gross. and everyone will hate me for it."
"shut up. ryan, listen. i know for a fact that not EVERYONE will hate you for it. dude, you'll always be ryan. gay or not. and people love you 'cause your ryan."
"yeahbut...this changes everything, it's going to change me...us...the band. those kids will stop supporting us if it leaks."
"it wont. and they wont. well if they're real fans they wont." and was it just me or did ryan just say "us"? he did, i knew it. OHEMGEE. this was kind of awesome. but so incredibly scary. i mumbled something under my breath unaware that he could hear it.
"what?"
Um...crap. he'd hear me and before i could stop myself i'd repeated the things i'd mumbled.
"iloveyou."
shttttttt.
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haha. cliffhangers again.