so i wrote a poem..here goes bitches:

[imadebaser]

CCRRRAAAZZZYYYY
(actually no title, but done by Margot Hiller)

Darkness resonates inside my bowl
My cerebrum taking toll
Seratonin now stole
What was once white is now coal

So with whispering mind
I seek out to find
A connection to heart
From pain, where's my art?

I tend to forget time
My words start to rhyme
I forget all of matter
Prone to wander, prone to shatter

And blindly still searching
Cerebrum now hurting
With not much at rest
And damp bandages on my chest

I tiredly beg inside head
Hopeful wishing I am dead
Will a curtain please divide
My cue to flee and hide

There's a crowd I'm never pleasing
Constant chatter never ceasing
Every peril I keep piled
Each dark feeling never mild
Behind a face that's never smiled
For my pain, I want exiled

I blend into one
All has bonded, now spun
Spun into thread
Thick web inside head

That tangles at night
And my regression's my plight
Inside of me is a verified mess
Things predicted, I confess

Medicated, self-destructive
Clock keep ticking, be productive
I'm veiled and alone
My brains disease never known

There's assailants that destroy me
Things so dark I can't see
To surrender I'd be weak
The imperfections that I seek

Which is more then I need
Disappointment, deadly seed
But to what victor would I bend?
My confused head, what to mend?
Have I hope left to pend,
For possible black that light offend?

Am I aware of a fight?
Is this black versus light?
Or is this exaggeration plenty?
Am I self-absorbed, took by pity?

Will my veil be yet lifted?
Is this a sign that I am gifted?
Gifted and able to create
A head that nothing can penetrate

Can I never view the world?
My dark web not unfurled
I'll keep waiting
Possible outcome devastating

And I'll daily keep searching
For a remedy undisturbing
For a reason, perhaps tonight
Darkness will lose to light.