You can call me a fool, I only wanna be with you
I am not having a good day. Or yesterday. He was gone for ten days, so I figured when he came back, I would be all happy to see him and stuff.. Apparently not. He doesn't tlak to me when he comes over, I try to talk to him and he just..whatever.. And we fight. And I hate it. So we were getting along for a little while, then I got mad at him for something..And I don't know..Then he got all pissed. And when I went to apologize for it, he just..turned and walked away. And..I don't know..he was just being mean to me a lot of the time.. And I cried. I cried because he'd been gone ten freaking days and I wanted to spent time with him. Not spend half of the time not talking and the other half fighting and crying and him not caring. And I cried because I love him. And I don't want it to be like everytime we get around each other we fight. Because I don't know what I'd do without him. And we fight a lot, but when we're not fighting..it's worth it. Just to have the times when we are happy. And getting along. And ooh I don't know. I can't stop crying. It just seems like our relationship isn't going too good. And the last thing in the world I want is to lose him. Because I need him. And I want him to be there. I mean..I don't want to break up..But I don't know if he would say the same. I mean..he promised and promised he would never break up with me, but he did. And I'm freaking nervous. I'm afraid if I even say the wrong thing, I'll lose him again. And I wouldn't be able to take it. I can't go through that again. Especially right now. But if he's not happy..I don't want to put him through it. Oh well. I guess he'll do what he wants. And obviously a break doesn't work cause we didn't talk for like ten days. But I'm glad I have Craig. Cause if he weren't there last night..I don't know what I would have done. Me and him walked around the neighborhood for like an hour.. And we talked..Then we sat around for a while and talked upstairs. I cried on his freaking shoulder the entire way to his house. And Robert just kind of..sat there.. and didn't say anything to me. But it's okay. I've got Craig. Hmmf.