Wad up
So i really have nuthin to update about, idk why i am doin it I havent in awhile, actually is been like 3 days, but it feels liek forever.
Well I havent talked about my family in awhile, lets start there. ME and my mom are gettin along prety well again, I just think that my depression ova took me and I was a bitch to eveyrone, so I aplogize, but wehn u get taht low in a depression u cant stop, u think of only how sorry u feel for urself adn how u hate life and when are u goin to be happy again. Seriously it was the suckiest thing in my life. LIke i didnt wanna die, but then again I didnt wanna live either. Its the werdiest feeling, I never wanna be there again and I am terrifed I will fall into a deeper depression, because I usually become depressed once a year and each year it gets worse and worse, I dotn wanna end up killin myself next year. And lately I have noticed myself very flirtious, adn wantin to be wild and crazy. Serioulsy I need a man to calm me down. Be like hey u are my woman, calm the fuck down. Ahh well do I really wanna settel down , its my senior year, I do wanna go buck wild, but at the same time I kno I will get into alot of trouble if I do? Thinkin thinkin thinkin, go crazy, settel down, go crazy, settel down.. well the decision is up to me but at the same time its up to fate, does fate have a guy for me to settle down with? cause if he dont come soon I dont kno wat I will do? Seriously ;)
Well I havent talked about my family in awhile, lets start there. ME and my mom are gettin along prety well again, I just think that my depression ova took me and I was a bitch to eveyrone, so I aplogize, but wehn u get taht low in a depression u cant stop, u think of only how sorry u feel for urself adn how u hate life and when are u goin to be happy again. Seriously it was the suckiest thing in my life. LIke i didnt wanna die, but then again I didnt wanna live either. Its the werdiest feeling, I never wanna be there again and I am terrifed I will fall into a deeper depression, because I usually become depressed once a year and each year it gets worse and worse, I dotn wanna end up killin myself next year. And lately I have noticed myself very flirtious, adn wantin to be wild and crazy. Serioulsy I need a man to calm me down. Be like hey u are my woman, calm the fuck down. Ahh well do I really wanna settel down , its my senior year, I do wanna go buck wild, but at the same time I kno I will get into alot of trouble if I do? Thinkin thinkin thinkin, go crazy, settel down, go crazy, settel down.. well the decision is up to me but at the same time its up to fate, does fate have a guy for me to settle down with? cause if he dont come soon I dont kno wat I will do? Seriously ;)