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I was in the shower tonight after karate (shut up molly :P) and I was thinking...
I was thinking, what if I die tonight?
And that made me realize how much I need to say before I die.
So I have to carve some time out of homework tonight and say it.
I guess the most important thing is to say I don't hate any of you, I've moved past that. It was a specific moment, and I remember it, when there was a little switch in me that went from anger to...sadness really. And in the sadness was forgiveness. And not just forgivness for all of you, but for myself too. For everybody. [and I cried fo us all]
That doesn't mean I don't still get mad though. Things still catch me off guard 'n stuff...cause that's way natural. But I do forgive everyone, and I do see the truth. It's not a very pretty truth and it's biting us all in the ass. But there's nothing I can do about it. It takes time I guess. Ha ha, getting over the eventuallys.
Anyway. I just had to say that.
I was thinking, what if I die tonight?
And that made me realize how much I need to say before I die.
So I have to carve some time out of homework tonight and say it.
I guess the most important thing is to say I don't hate any of you, I've moved past that. It was a specific moment, and I remember it, when there was a little switch in me that went from anger to...sadness really. And in the sadness was forgiveness. And not just forgivness for all of you, but for myself too. For everybody. [and I cried fo us all]
That doesn't mean I don't still get mad though. Things still catch me off guard 'n stuff...cause that's way natural. But I do forgive everyone, and I do see the truth. It's not a very pretty truth and it's biting us all in the ass. But there's nothing I can do about it. It takes time I guess. Ha ha, getting over the eventuallys.
Anyway. I just had to say that.