"Drop Everything...
Start it all over
remember more than you'd like to forget."
-Taking Back Sunday
Wow a blog post from me. This is weird
Haven't used this in a while.
And I'm going to feel horrendously stupid when I'm done posting
like unbeleivably stupid and not to mention emo but whatever
Thats what Blogs are for yeah?
WARNING: the next part of this blog is going to be filled with self loathing and unjust hatered to the world. If you're going to bitch at me about it, go away.
Josiah ect
Well lets start this out. For one I hate every fiber of my entire being. My mind is being completely irrational and it was all triggered last night because of Josiah, and its not his fault at all because its my problem for not dealing with this earlier but I feel like pointing fingers right now. So Siah I'm sorry but I'm pissed at you for the moment. But I really should have delt with this "little" [thats an understatement by the way] problem on my own. But of course being me, I just kind of supress it until someone prevokes it and my mind completely obsesses over it and I get depressed [thank you subconcious] Really only Josiah knows what I'm talking about and I would go in depth about it, but I'm too much of a pussy to put what I told him on the internet [but posting the rest of my problems is okay]
Friends
I miss my old life, it was a nice life, a little boring but I had a social place and I knew who my friends were and they knew me. Most of them knew me from when I first moved to Shorewood. Now I don't know anyone, they don't know me and they expect me to be their best friend. I'm sorry but thats BULLSHIT. You don't know me and I don't know you. It's hard to be someones best friend if you haven't been through thick and thin with them, when you don't know their moods, the past relationships, just their lives. I don't know, maybe I have a higher bar to jump over to actually be considered one of my close friends.
I have also realized the more I hang out with these Floridian people the more I hate them. And its nothing against them, they are all nice people [well most of them] but I have realized I have tried to find similar personalities in friends as the ones I have back in Washington, and that is impossible since they ARE NOT my friends from Washington. My mind is really putting me through the loops and its not exactly a fun ride. And if any of my FL people read this, I'm sorry [kinda] but I needed to get some of this shit out.
Relationships
I swear to God if I get asked out one more time I'm going to scream in your fucking faces. Each time I meet new people I tell them specifically that I don't want to get a boyfriend//girlfriend and one person from that group of people will get the hots for me. I mean, yes it is flatering but YOU DON'T KNOW ME don't try and get into a relationship with me unless you have known me for more than a few months and none of the people have known me that long. LEAVE ME ALONE I'm not lonely, well, not lonely enough for a boyfriend/girlfriend its getting on my fucking nerves. I want to sort out my own head trips and do things I want to do. I mean, this is nothing against the people who have asked me out previously, you don't really know what is going on inside my head. It's not like I don't like you as a person but I don't want to be in ANY relationship. So if any of you read this, I think you get my point :D
RANT OVER
remember more than you'd like to forget."
-Taking Back Sunday
Wow a blog post from me. This is weird
Haven't used this in a while.
And I'm going to feel horrendously stupid when I'm done posting
like unbeleivably stupid and not to mention emo but whatever
Thats what Blogs are for yeah?
WARNING: the next part of this blog is going to be filled with self loathing and unjust hatered to the world. If you're going to bitch at me about it, go away.
Josiah ect
Well lets start this out. For one I hate every fiber of my entire being. My mind is being completely irrational and it was all triggered last night because of Josiah, and its not his fault at all because its my problem for not dealing with this earlier but I feel like pointing fingers right now. So Siah I'm sorry but I'm pissed at you for the moment. But I really should have delt with this "little" [thats an understatement by the way] problem on my own. But of course being me, I just kind of supress it until someone prevokes it and my mind completely obsesses over it and I get depressed [thank you subconcious] Really only Josiah knows what I'm talking about and I would go in depth about it, but I'm too much of a pussy to put what I told him on the internet [but posting the rest of my problems is okay]
Friends
I miss my old life, it was a nice life, a little boring but I had a social place and I knew who my friends were and they knew me. Most of them knew me from when I first moved to Shorewood. Now I don't know anyone, they don't know me and they expect me to be their best friend. I'm sorry but thats BULLSHIT. You don't know me and I don't know you. It's hard to be someones best friend if you haven't been through thick and thin with them, when you don't know their moods, the past relationships, just their lives. I don't know, maybe I have a higher bar to jump over to actually be considered one of my close friends.
I have also realized the more I hang out with these Floridian people the more I hate them. And its nothing against them, they are all nice people [well most of them] but I have realized I have tried to find similar personalities in friends as the ones I have back in Washington, and that is impossible since they ARE NOT my friends from Washington. My mind is really putting me through the loops and its not exactly a fun ride. And if any of my FL people read this, I'm sorry [kinda] but I needed to get some of this shit out.
Relationships
I swear to God if I get asked out one more time I'm going to scream in your fucking faces. Each time I meet new people I tell them specifically that I don't want to get a boyfriend//girlfriend and one person from that group of people will get the hots for me. I mean, yes it is flatering but YOU DON'T KNOW ME don't try and get into a relationship with me unless you have known me for more than a few months and none of the people have known me that long. LEAVE ME ALONE I'm not lonely, well, not lonely enough for a boyfriend/girlfriend its getting on my fucking nerves. I want to sort out my own head trips and do things I want to do. I mean, this is nothing against the people who have asked me out previously, you don't really know what is going on inside my head. It's not like I don't like you as a person but I don't want to be in ANY relationship. So if any of you read this, I think you get my point :D
RANT OVER