everybody's lost. the battle is won.

[ima_silly_girl]

"the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a coimmonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."

graduation was good. it seemed that i was the only one crying in the whole room. when they were dancing it seemed that i couldnt even hear the music. just the sound of me trying to catch a breath. trying to think what i was going to do with out my sister. what i would feel the next day knowing that i would not see most of these people ever again. some friends. some not. i guess if we are meant to be friends then i will see them. things will happen. bad or good. hopefully its for the best. kelly sat like right behind me. so we would sit there and make faces at each other and talk about this one person who was performing. thats what i'm going to miss. i didn't get to say goodbye to everyone. at one point i just wanted to sit down. anywhere. on the ground. in the middle of the crowd. just to feel surounded by those people just one more time.

the after party was fun. fun. fun. fun. fun. lights kept going out. alcohol. lots of people. lots of drunk people.