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so everythings all fucked up.. the weekend before last i get a phone call from bryan and hes all worried about bea questioning me if ive heard from her or if ive talked to her and i told her no, and i said to him what is going on your starting to worry me, and he told me bea has been hooked on herion for some time now and jesse (her boyfriend) is giving it to her for free, as much as she wants of it. and so he tells me that he needs to find her immediatily so this is at probabilly 11 at night and ive been going since 6 o clock that morning from school and then work and i told him id meet him down the street so we could start our search, he picks me up and we start driving around looking for her and at about 1 or 2 am we give up. we searched jesses dads house, moms house, beas moms house, beas dads house, kleys, the warehouse, and like everywhere else. but we go to ashleys house and were just sitting there with a bunch of other ppl that are worried about bea and everyone goes to sleep eventually at like 4am, and i stay awake worried as hell. at about 6 30 i decide im going to try to see if shes online, so i went online and bea was on. i talked to her and she tells me she didnt pick up any of our phone calls or anything because she thought we needed time to cool off.. i found that hilarious, but after that i started yelling at her for all the dumb shit shes been doing and i tell her everything that happened that night and she starts histarically crying saying she dosent want to do this anymore she dosent want to do herion anymore she wants out of that kind of life ( by that time i was on the phone with her and brian was up nxt to me listining) and basically i got bea to agree she would come stay with bryan for a while and not see jesse anymore and that she was done with him and that she wanted to be with bryan ( which i add LOVED HER) everything went good for about a week. when tonight i get a call from bryan saying "bea went back with jesse handle that as you please ok ill talk to you later bye" i was furious! after all of that. and i made myself clear that the second she goes back to jesse the second she lies to me again and the second she does herion again i will never be back into her life, and i hold my word to that. and so far tonight, she lied to my face, most likely did herion again, and went back to jesse, yea so i called her and i bitched and got what i had to say out and i ended all contact with her, i dont want anything to do with her anymore i did everything i could since 8th grade trying to help her, but it wasnt enough, i guess you cant help a pathalogical lier that dosent want to be helped, nore a herion addict pathalogical lier that dosent want to be helped which is exactly what she is. so what ever. i worrie for her, and i know shes gona fuck herself over again soon, but i cant do it anymore.. i cnat go though the shit.
good luck bea, with out me that is.
good luck bea, with out me that is.