We hide in the stars, that's where our heads are, my head and your heart

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I feel like college has successfully crushed my passion and creativity. Not to mention my ambition. Who gives a shit about what I want to do in my life? It's all about finishing school and getting a job so you can make a buck, not having a fulfilling life. It's about grades, not growth.

Ever since we're kids we're convinced that if you work hard and do your best, you'll be a success. What crap. They should be telling us what you should do when you do your best and it's still not good enough. They should be telling you about how your plans probably won't work out, and you'll end up having to settle for something that isn't at all what you want.

I wish someone had been realistic. I wish someone had told me that there are some things that you just can't do, regardless of how much you want to.
Does it mean I've failed if I can't do it? What does it say about you if you uproot your life to accomplish this one goal and you don't?

All I want is a hug from my mom. But she lives too far away.

At least there is hope for one thing to go right in my life right now. Oh how I hope it will.

Apparently I will be home for the summer. I think I'm excited about it.