and its all downhill from here
Dear Diary,
mood : apathetic
my life is spiraling downward...
oh emo song...why have you become my life? haha seriously though i dont know wtf is going on in my world. everything is going wrong.. its like the saying when it rains, it pours. bad things never happen in small doses. its like either the best or the worst theres no in between with me.
it all started with my camera disappearing. ever since then its been all downhill... camera gone, then the other night someone crashes into the back of my car... scariest thing thats ever happened to me.. i honestly dont know how or why im still alive right now. so my car is totaled and i have no idea how i am supposed to get around or how i am going to be able to afford a new car before school starts up again grrrr... my dad is sick... i havent finished my xmas shopping... i have a final tomorrow that i am definitely going to fail... AHHHHHH <--- thats how i feel right now! i cant even think straight.. all i want to do it sleep but my mind wont stop long enough
one last visit with my bsc loves tomorrow!!! i've missed them! and i will miss them sooo much, not seeing them for like a month. how will i live?! seriously...
seeing my home friends will be nice.. we planned a trip to canada but i was supposed to drive and now i cant so i dont even know if we are going to be able to go. but just hanging out is fun with them.
break will be nice.. for everyone! ive found this year that christmas can be so bittersweet.. dont get me wrong i love buying gifts for people and who doesnt love getting gifts but when you actually take time to think, think about how lucky you are. how there are MILLIONS of people that dont even have water and i have EVERYTHING i could ever want nevermind need. i almost feel sick with each present i open. so many people dont have food or clothing and im hoping i got the $300 cell phone i wanted. selfish i know. i wish there was more i could do for those people but as a broke 20 year old girl.. i just dont know what...once im old enough i decided i would join the peace corps. i feel like i owe the world something.
i have no one to kiss under the missle toe again this year.. where is my prince charming? can anyone let me know? anyone? i'm starting to think he might not exist!
i got nothing else right now so i'll catch ya on the flip side
haha wow im sorry for that.. goodnight!
mood : apathetic
my life is spiraling downward...
oh emo song...why have you become my life? haha seriously though i dont know wtf is going on in my world. everything is going wrong.. its like the saying when it rains, it pours. bad things never happen in small doses. its like either the best or the worst theres no in between with me.
it all started with my camera disappearing. ever since then its been all downhill... camera gone, then the other night someone crashes into the back of my car... scariest thing thats ever happened to me.. i honestly dont know how or why im still alive right now. so my car is totaled and i have no idea how i am supposed to get around or how i am going to be able to afford a new car before school starts up again grrrr... my dad is sick... i havent finished my xmas shopping... i have a final tomorrow that i am definitely going to fail... AHHHHHH <--- thats how i feel right now! i cant even think straight.. all i want to do it sleep but my mind wont stop long enough
one last visit with my bsc loves tomorrow!!! i've missed them! and i will miss them sooo much, not seeing them for like a month. how will i live?! seriously...
seeing my home friends will be nice.. we planned a trip to canada but i was supposed to drive and now i cant so i dont even know if we are going to be able to go. but just hanging out is fun with them.
break will be nice.. for everyone! ive found this year that christmas can be so bittersweet.. dont get me wrong i love buying gifts for people and who doesnt love getting gifts but when you actually take time to think, think about how lucky you are. how there are MILLIONS of people that dont even have water and i have EVERYTHING i could ever want nevermind need. i almost feel sick with each present i open. so many people dont have food or clothing and im hoping i got the $300 cell phone i wanted. selfish i know. i wish there was more i could do for those people but as a broke 20 year old girl.. i just dont know what...once im old enough i decided i would join the peace corps. i feel like i owe the world something.
i have no one to kiss under the missle toe again this year.. where is my prince charming? can anyone let me know? anyone? i'm starting to think he might not exist!
i got nothing else right now so i'll catch ya on the flip side
haha wow im sorry for that.. goodnight!