he's only a dream.

[im_so_deep]

i awoke last nite from the best dream. i woke up in a panic. at first i didn't realize why i was panicing. then i closed my eyes and remembered my dream. in my dream he wrote me a letter telling me that he realized that he still loved me and that i'm an amazing girl. i had never been so happy. well actually when i was with him i was this happy. he's perfection. pure. i still love him without a doubt. when i realized it was just a dream my whole body got warm and i felt like crying. i looked around my sister was cuddling with me. she was like little lilo, thats what i call her. i gave her a kiss on the forehead and looked at my cell phone to see that it was 5 in the morning and i had 3 missed calls, one from hayley and 2 from a private number. the only person that would call me from a private number at 5 in the morning was cory. i doubt he'd call. he's not that respectful... he would bother to talk to me.

i'm so full of anger and longing and loneliness. i unplugged my phone. i left my razor in boston, i think thats a good thing. i'm guna go read my bible, it always make me feel better. God bless.