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i feel like a copy of a copy of a bad cliche. My life is like climbinhg a spiral stair case. I cover the same ground over and over again. I'm just older. And if i fall. I fall farther. Cause there's no railings on my staircase. I dont wnat there to be. I want to fall and break an arm or an leg. I've never done that before in real life that is. I'm climbing this staircase. and I dont even care where it leads. I just need to get to the top.
The only problem is. when i take another step. Something else leaves me. Wasted seconds. Time spent online. Time spent on hold. time spent not doing anyhting. I'm never gonna see this world again. and im wasting time on it.
I wouldn't even feel alive except for, well, the few , but strong jolts of pleasure. I guess hearing a girls voice say "oh my" can really make a difference in a guys life. or being called baby, once or twice a phone call.
I feel like punching every kid who ever were black eyeliner and called themself emo. I feel like punching every kid who talked about how anarchy in the way to go. I feel like being hugged and kissed. I feel like waking up, on my couch, girl in arms , and knwoing i passed out during my favorite movie cause i was a bit to stoned and used all my energy on sex. I dont want to be so sure , that it will be a while till everything is back to feeling normal in my life. I need a new cd in my player. And I feel like a cigggerette
The only problem is. when i take another step. Something else leaves me. Wasted seconds. Time spent online. Time spent on hold. time spent not doing anyhting. I'm never gonna see this world again. and im wasting time on it.
I wouldn't even feel alive except for, well, the few , but strong jolts of pleasure. I guess hearing a girls voice say "oh my" can really make a difference in a guys life. or being called baby, once or twice a phone call.
I feel like punching every kid who ever were black eyeliner and called themself emo. I feel like punching every kid who talked about how anarchy in the way to go. I feel like being hugged and kissed. I feel like waking up, on my couch, girl in arms , and knwoing i passed out during my favorite movie cause i was a bit to stoned and used all my energy on sex. I dont want to be so sure , that it will be a while till everything is back to feeling normal in my life. I need a new cd in my player. And I feel like a cigggerette