You are so beautiful to meeee!
I think I have it worked out.
I'm used to these highly dramatic heartbreaking situations, and this isn't.
I keep waiting for drama and heartbreak but it isn't happening.
I propose to you [my small amount of lj friends] that really my mind is inventing trouble so I will feel normal.
Which is not only annoying it's also a bit pathetic, because here I have this chance to be really happy and it's bloody easy; but I'm being a twat about it!
I was naughty and ate non soya ice cream last night, felt really sick for about an hour.
Then I had another odd conversation, and I ended up hanging up which is so fucking immature and pathetic-and if it had been the other way around I would have gone mental.
I just want to feel happy and secure again like I did the week before last-but it seems that I can't. I think now I've started being a twat I can't seem to stop.
The relationship seems to have shifted into the normal place I take things and I'm not really happy about it.
I just want us to get back where we were. BUT it seems the more I think about it the more it doesn't!!!
I need to CHILL THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He is everything I want and have ever wanted, so why can't I relax and enjoy it?
[Rhetorical unless someone actually wants to tell me]