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[im_not_cool]

lionel is comming into town tomorrow for a competition, later that evening i am driving him back to victorville, where maria and i will be staying the night at bryan's, hopefully not too much partying. its going to be more of a "just appreciate where you are" kind of trip. lionel said being out there will change me. if so, thats good. i need a change in my life. my life revolves around school and work. i need something for me. i havent been sad in a really long time, but i still need a change.

i need a break from this place.