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[im_not_alli14]

it is so hard to live a lie
to lie to someone you once loved;;
because you know it is so wrong
but you cant help but want it so bad.
im not a bad person.
and definately not a liar
but i want both
i can be such a selfish person
i hate that
ill regret every second of it
no doubt
n i wont give him up because....
you want a second chance
i should play you like you played me
but then id hurt him
& he is my heart now
he is the one i belong to
i can fuck things up with you and not care in the least
but him;;
i have too much of a heart for that
im not as heartless as you
everytime you say you've changes you go back to your ways
i love you...
no those are three little words
a catchy phrase i mite add
a lie;;
i cant be a lie
i cant lie to him
im down wit him.
n there are no 2nd chances this time
i lied yes.
but only so you could feel what i felt for a god damn year
to want sumthin so damn bad.
but you cant have it
ill do you wrong.
im heartless.
can't you see that.