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Its getting harder now to think
So I pop a couple pills just a few to help me sleep
but once the alarm clock goes off everything is still the same
and your still on your way.
I wish that I knew how to deal, its still a touchy subject it still feels so unreal
Dad oh dad how do I mend the pain. I cant just hold my breath I am affarid that I might faint.
There you go, once again
under the knife, hide my strife, I try to sallow it all at once
a lump inside my throat with pride and fear alike
I know that you will come out alright but whenever we have to do this every nightmare comes alive.
What do I do? How do I act?
All these questions I want to ask, but I cant.
Instead I just hide behind a wall one I bulit long ago in order to protect my soul.
You know I am scared and I know you know me well.
We often think the same I see alot me of me in the way your thoughts go thru your brain.
Am I insane? Why cant she understand?
she always mad shes always mad she always mad
Oh god its starting to take over so I have to do something else