I want a puppy too!
As I wander the internet tonight I feel an urge to write. About what? I don't know. I feel the sudden urgency to find something to do or something to watch or read but at the same time realize it's almost three in the morning and going to bed should be my primary goal. Updating on here seemed like a good idea but I'm not ready to post what I want to say and believe there is a lot I want to say, write, do.
Let's just say that currently life is going splendidly. I have made several efforts to reorganize and re-prioritize my life in order to obtain my goals because now I have a goal or a few goals really. It took me nearly four years of college to narrow it down to what I would like to continue with in education and with a career. My last real semester is nearing and it's scary because I'm unsure as to what exactly the next step is. Get a second job? Go on to more schooling? Take a great trip somewhere? Really I am scared shitless because like it or not my next step isn't going into the real world. Ever since I was cut off from my parent's I have been living the real experience, dealing with the things life throws at you that no amount of schooling will ever prepare you for. I'd explain but I feel most people know what I mean.
I was pondering lifetimes. It's so hard to imagine the amazing things that I've been witness to in just twenty-two years. Hailey's comet passed by the week of my birth. A space shuttle exploded. The World Wide Web showed up. Oklahoma saw a bombing. Columbine saw a shooting. A young girl in Boulder was brutally murdered and more brutally plastered over America for reasons I'm still weary of. I was there for the bombing at the Olympic park in 1996. Global warming grips the world. Gay marriage is fought for across the nation. The president gets head. People connect on line like people have never done before. Twin Towers fall. A Hurricane devastates a city. Famine and war destroy a continent. An economy is in turmoil. Cell-Phones are everywhere. A millennium comes and goes. People die. Diseases progress. Life goes on. The first African-American man is elected to the highest power of perhaps the mightiest country while at the same time, that same country still treats minorities as second class citizens, threatening their rights to be free human beings based on religious, moral beliefs that have always existed in our politics. It shows how while great strides have been made, many more will be needed. I lay in my bed watching the news, listening to music, and typing in a blog, all on one machine, all running on one battery, thinking about what the future holds and reflecting on what the world has seen while I have been around.
There has been so much on my mind. This week has left me speechless. All I can think about right now is the past but I have more to say. I'll be back soon.
Let's just say that currently life is going splendidly. I have made several efforts to reorganize and re-prioritize my life in order to obtain my goals because now I have a goal or a few goals really. It took me nearly four years of college to narrow it down to what I would like to continue with in education and with a career. My last real semester is nearing and it's scary because I'm unsure as to what exactly the next step is. Get a second job? Go on to more schooling? Take a great trip somewhere? Really I am scared shitless because like it or not my next step isn't going into the real world. Ever since I was cut off from my parent's I have been living the real experience, dealing with the things life throws at you that no amount of schooling will ever prepare you for. I'd explain but I feel most people know what I mean.
I was pondering lifetimes. It's so hard to imagine the amazing things that I've been witness to in just twenty-two years. Hailey's comet passed by the week of my birth. A space shuttle exploded. The World Wide Web showed up. Oklahoma saw a bombing. Columbine saw a shooting. A young girl in Boulder was brutally murdered and more brutally plastered over America for reasons I'm still weary of. I was there for the bombing at the Olympic park in 1996. Global warming grips the world. Gay marriage is fought for across the nation. The president gets head. People connect on line like people have never done before. Twin Towers fall. A Hurricane devastates a city. Famine and war destroy a continent. An economy is in turmoil. Cell-Phones are everywhere. A millennium comes and goes. People die. Diseases progress. Life goes on. The first African-American man is elected to the highest power of perhaps the mightiest country while at the same time, that same country still treats minorities as second class citizens, threatening their rights to be free human beings based on religious, moral beliefs that have always existed in our politics. It shows how while great strides have been made, many more will be needed. I lay in my bed watching the news, listening to music, and typing in a blog, all on one machine, all running on one battery, thinking about what the future holds and reflecting on what the world has seen while I have been around.
There has been so much on my mind. This week has left me speechless. All I can think about right now is the past but I have more to say. I'll be back soon.