theatrical-muse: Is indifference worse than hate?
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For years I believed that my father hated me because of the indifference that he had towards me for the majority of my life. Granted, there were also those days when he...
...well, it doesn't matter. I just thought--
Nothing that I ever said pleased him. Nothing that I ever did was good enough. Don't touch that, Anthony. Don't bother me, Anthony, I'm working.
Stark men are made of steel, Anthony.
Get your head out of your ass, Anthony.
For someone so smart, how can you be so fucking stupid.
I don't have time for your bullshit.
There was always so much anger whenever he...
Fuck. Fuck it, it doesn't matter now, does it? He's dead. He's been dead. He's the American patriot, he's
He's Howard Stark.
And he made that video. He made that fucking video, and he
I guess he never hated me. I guess he cared, more than he ever cared to tell me.
I just
Fuck.
I wish I could be indifferent to it, I wish it didn't matter, but it just...
He's my father. And I shouldn't care, after so many damn years I just shouldn't care, but sometimes I just hate him. Because, fuck you, Howard. How dare you. How fucking DARE YOU to just make a video, like that fixes everything. Like that absolves EVERY FUCKING THING you ever said to me, every thing you did. Did it make you feel better? Did you think, hey the little prick is five so let's make a video, and let's screw up the rest of his life because he'll find the video later and that will be that.
What does it matter if indifference is worse than hate? Sometimes they're equally as damaging, anyway.
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For years I believed that my father hated me because of the indifference that he had towards me for the majority of my life. Granted, there were also those days when he...
...well, it doesn't matter. I just thought--
Nothing that I ever said pleased him. Nothing that I ever did was good enough. Don't touch that, Anthony. Don't bother me, Anthony, I'm working.
Stark men are made of steel, Anthony.
Get your head out of your ass, Anthony.
For someone so smart, how can you be so fucking stupid.
I don't have time for your bullshit.
There was always so much anger whenever he...
Fuck. Fuck it, it doesn't matter now, does it? He's dead. He's been dead. He's the American patriot, he's
He's Howard Stark.
And he made that video. He made that fucking video, and he
I guess he never hated me. I guess he cared, more than he ever cared to tell me.
I just
Fuck.
I wish I could be indifferent to it, I wish it didn't matter, but it just...
He's my father. And I shouldn't care, after so many damn years I just shouldn't care, but sometimes I just hate him. Because, fuck you, Howard. How dare you. How fucking DARE YOU to just make a video, like that fixes everything. Like that absolves EVERY FUCKING THING you ever said to me, every thing you did. Did it make you feel better? Did you think, hey the little prick is five so let's make a video, and let's screw up the rest of his life because he'll find the video later and that will be that.
What does it matter if indifference is worse than hate? Sometimes they're equally as damaging, anyway.
289 words, NOT tied to any Howard muse in particular.