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um...well im bored.
today my mom woke me up at 1 something then i cleaned and just kinda sat. i didnt have anything better to do. i cant do homework. it takes me FOREVER. i just sit there, looking at it. haha especially essays.
my mom wont let me do anything until all my homework is done. although the only thing she was gonna lemme do was go to my grannies anyway. so o well. i did get to go to froggers though....AND.... i got to see david for what felt like 2 seconds in the parking lot....SO much better than being at home. i hate my house.
its weird how someone can be your nieghbor and you not talk to them in years. especially out here were theres only about 7 people on the road.
i miss everyone so much. its not right. this is a big waste of life. im glad theres no more hurricanes cuz if there was one while i was grounded i would die. i like school, even though i hate it. if that makes sense. im glad its not summer. if i was grounded over summer i would also die. i need to see friends.
i feel like a big loser who sits at home every night on the weekends. i guess i am haha
my brother didnt even finish high school. he got to have so much fun. i dont think thats very fair. im green with envy.
i dont want to go to NC on christmas break like my parents want to. unless i can have a friend go. that would always be a plus. they want to go on as many family vacations as they can while im still living under the same roof as them. stupid. i was so misreble last year. then i almost passed out cuz i went in a sauna haha. im dumb. but yea i dont wanna go. christmas feels so far away, but its really not.
well ill stop rambling.
being grounded sucks.
i remember when your a lil kid. if your sad or mad or something you always say "i wanna go home". well thats what i did anyway. i hate being home. home is not here.
.fuck
-sinking