FUCK
damn it. i don't want to see you anymore.
i want you out of my sentences, my head, and most of all, my heart.
i don't see you anymore, not physically...
but i see you when i don't expect to, when i don't want to...when i close my eyes.
fuck.
i don't want you back god damn it. i don't.
i want to be nice to you. but i can't do that without you and everyone else thinking i want you back.
you hurt me too much, and yes, it has been awhile...
but what you did to me...it takes years to get over.
i might never be over it.
fuck you for hurting me. fuck you for doing that. fuck you for leaving me alone.
fuck you for deserting me when i needed you most. fuck you for scarring me for life.
fuck you for takeing a peice of me i want back.
fuck you for making me love you.
but most of all...fuck you for not letting me let go.
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.
I thought that fit the mood. fuck.