I am senseeeeeeetive
Tell me Why.. after having that big talk with Mr. Ampudia..
I did the exact Opposite..
I got a phone call at 1:30am.
It sounded like my cousin. I was half asleep... He said I am going to your house. I was like.. "oh yeah for the wedding.. so you guys areeee coming down after all" (THEY LIVE near Sacramento)
But I was half asleep. He said I'll call you in a bit so you could go outside.
I was like okay?
After when he called back. I realized it was Bryan.. drunk. HIs voice was different and he was smiling not his Boring MAD "LONELY WOLF" usual self. That's why he had sounded like my cousin..
He said go outside by your window. I was like "OH MY GOD ITS BRYAN! I thought you were my cousin", he said "duh!!!!!!! I need to ask you for a favor... " I went outside.. I let him inside my house. He walked in and jumped on my "full size" bed I had bought for the both of us.. (remember?) I said "whats the favor?" he didn't want to tell me. I said.. "I let you inside of my house! you have to let me know now.." "NO I'LL TELL YOU LATER.. " I shook him around a few times.. bothering him. I turned on the lights.. and said "WHAT IS THE FAVOR!!!!!!!!!" "its cuz.. me and my friend got stopped by the cops and we had tweak... well he did but I was with him.. and they took my id and if i don't pay BY TOMORROW... I am going to jail, we need $300"..
what the fuck? I've never heard of that.. and last time I checked you have to go to court first.. and pay it there.. not the following day. They give you an extension.. right?
I said "I don't have money.. I just spent my money, see all that.. (i pointed at the mall shopping bags) I just spent my money on all that!.. I just have 160$ left.. and plus.. I don't TRUST YOU WITH MY MONEY!" He said "addy come on you know I'll pay you back.. "
I just stood there.. looking at him. Staring at him.. Hunchedback like quazzymoto.. with his hands in his pocket looking down at the floor.. ugh he dresses so fugly. He dresses ALL BAGGY. with probably an XL shirt that made him look like a pumpkin even if he wears a size 29 in pants.. and most likely a size Small now that he was skinnier. I said "ew you look so UGLY!.. what happened to you?????"
I think he isn't even HOT AT ALL.. or slightly attractive.. How could I like THAT. How could have I been in LOVE with him! His hair was shorter than I remembered.. which is RATHER SICKENING.. (last time I hung out with him... I saw him in the darkk.. this time we were inside my room.. and my lights were on..) He looked like a Full-Fledged MICE GONE ON A HUNGER STRIKE. I could already see him with his sign PROTESTING...
we kissed.. he doesn't even kiss the same. HE DOESN'T do anything the same. I felt like it was just a random boy like RAUL and Jimmy. or the other 20 different people I cheated with.. It wasn't the same.
We layed in bed with his arm around me. I could hear him breathe on my neck fast like as if he had just ran a mile. I thought to myself. What are you doing? You don't even like him! Why did you just sneak in this boy after all that he did to you? He doesn't deserve your FRIENDSHIP!
"I like you, I love you, I am still in love with you.. addy, but it just isn't the same"
HOw could he possibly love someone? Is that even called love? sociopaths don't love anyone. They lack remorse, have no feelings.... etc..
Anyway $300 .. PFFT YEAH RIGHT! I thought .. Staring at him up and down.. Come on If it was earlier this year and you asked me to give you that much money.. I would have given it to you. I would have FOUNDDDD THE WAY to get $300. not just the $160 I had.. When I love someone I'D do ANYTHING for them. I would even put my sweater on the mud so they could walk over it. and not get their shoes wet. I would have put myself as a MUD SHIELD on the floor.. I shook my head looking at him.. "that's what you get for hanging out with the wrong people.. bad shit has happened to you ever since you left me.. your tough luck" I didn't even feel empathy at all. I didn't feel bad at all. I could already see him in the Jail Cell wearing a striped jumpsuit or an orange jumpsuit with a Ball Chain around his ankle and his hands behind him with handcuffs. and me in the background not feeling one bit of empathy or SYMPATHY! it was like "OH WELL.. going with the flow... 'MUTABLE SELF'"
But I don't believe that those $300 were for the "ticket" or "fine" he had to pay.. I strongly believe that it was for some drugs.. shit he had to pay.. because he owed someone.. I didn't believe one single word that came out of his mouth.
I told him that he didn't affect me, in a negative way anyway.. That I had gotten the GREATEST SCORE of my life with Mr. Ampudia even we both thought he was the HARDEST teacher... and has a very STRONG VOCABULAYR.. "I'M INCLINED TO THINK THAT.. " I was living my life and being happy... all by myself.. and " with a little help from my friends I found the light in the tunnel at the ennnnd" he said "I am happy for you.. I know you are very intelligent, I knew you could do it" He gave me a hug.. and kissed me on the forehead..
ASSHOLE!
I fell asleep and Woke up. it was 5am.. I told him he had to go home. He said 5 more minutes.. I fell asleep again. He woke me up saying he was going home.. and once again he asked "so you don't have the money?? only 160?" "um call me tomorrow I get off work at 4:45pm.. and I'll see if I have the money together.. if I do .. I'll give it to you"
yeah right.
I am disgusted.
Monet I miss you bitch! come home!!!!!
I did the exact Opposite..
I got a phone call at 1:30am.
It sounded like my cousin. I was half asleep... He said I am going to your house. I was like.. "oh yeah for the wedding.. so you guys areeee coming down after all" (THEY LIVE near Sacramento)
But I was half asleep. He said I'll call you in a bit so you could go outside.
I was like okay?
After when he called back. I realized it was Bryan.. drunk. HIs voice was different and he was smiling not his Boring MAD "LONELY WOLF" usual self. That's why he had sounded like my cousin..
He said go outside by your window. I was like "OH MY GOD ITS BRYAN! I thought you were my cousin", he said "duh!!!!!!! I need to ask you for a favor... " I went outside.. I let him inside my house. He walked in and jumped on my "full size" bed I had bought for the both of us.. (remember?) I said "whats the favor?" he didn't want to tell me. I said.. "I let you inside of my house! you have to let me know now.." "NO I'LL TELL YOU LATER.. " I shook him around a few times.. bothering him. I turned on the lights.. and said "WHAT IS THE FAVOR!!!!!!!!!" "its cuz.. me and my friend got stopped by the cops and we had tweak... well he did but I was with him.. and they took my id and if i don't pay BY TOMORROW... I am going to jail, we need $300"..
what the fuck? I've never heard of that.. and last time I checked you have to go to court first.. and pay it there.. not the following day. They give you an extension.. right?
I said "I don't have money.. I just spent my money, see all that.. (i pointed at the mall shopping bags) I just spent my money on all that!.. I just have 160$ left.. and plus.. I don't TRUST YOU WITH MY MONEY!" He said "addy come on you know I'll pay you back.. "
I just stood there.. looking at him. Staring at him.. Hunchedback like quazzymoto.. with his hands in his pocket looking down at the floor.. ugh he dresses so fugly. He dresses ALL BAGGY. with probably an XL shirt that made him look like a pumpkin even if he wears a size 29 in pants.. and most likely a size Small now that he was skinnier. I said "ew you look so UGLY!.. what happened to you?????"
I think he isn't even HOT AT ALL.. or slightly attractive.. How could I like THAT. How could have I been in LOVE with him! His hair was shorter than I remembered.. which is RATHER SICKENING.. (last time I hung out with him... I saw him in the darkk.. this time we were inside my room.. and my lights were on..) He looked like a Full-Fledged MICE GONE ON A HUNGER STRIKE. I could already see him with his sign PROTESTING...
we kissed.. he doesn't even kiss the same. HE DOESN'T do anything the same. I felt like it was just a random boy like RAUL and Jimmy. or the other 20 different people I cheated with.. It wasn't the same.
We layed in bed with his arm around me. I could hear him breathe on my neck fast like as if he had just ran a mile. I thought to myself. What are you doing? You don't even like him! Why did you just sneak in this boy after all that he did to you? He doesn't deserve your FRIENDSHIP!
"I like you, I love you, I am still in love with you.. addy, but it just isn't the same"
HOw could he possibly love someone? Is that even called love? sociopaths don't love anyone. They lack remorse, have no feelings.... etc..
Anyway $300 .. PFFT YEAH RIGHT! I thought .. Staring at him up and down.. Come on If it was earlier this year and you asked me to give you that much money.. I would have given it to you. I would have FOUNDDDD THE WAY to get $300. not just the $160 I had.. When I love someone I'D do ANYTHING for them. I would even put my sweater on the mud so they could walk over it. and not get their shoes wet. I would have put myself as a MUD SHIELD on the floor.. I shook my head looking at him.. "that's what you get for hanging out with the wrong people.. bad shit has happened to you ever since you left me.. your tough luck" I didn't even feel empathy at all. I didn't feel bad at all. I could already see him in the Jail Cell wearing a striped jumpsuit or an orange jumpsuit with a Ball Chain around his ankle and his hands behind him with handcuffs. and me in the background not feeling one bit of empathy or SYMPATHY! it was like "OH WELL.. going with the flow... 'MUTABLE SELF'"
But I don't believe that those $300 were for the "ticket" or "fine" he had to pay.. I strongly believe that it was for some drugs.. shit he had to pay.. because he owed someone.. I didn't believe one single word that came out of his mouth.
I told him that he didn't affect me, in a negative way anyway.. That I had gotten the GREATEST SCORE of my life with Mr. Ampudia even we both thought he was the HARDEST teacher... and has a very STRONG VOCABULAYR.. "I'M INCLINED TO THINK THAT.. " I was living my life and being happy... all by myself.. and " with a little help from my friends I found the light in the tunnel at the ennnnd" he said "I am happy for you.. I know you are very intelligent, I knew you could do it" He gave me a hug.. and kissed me on the forehead..
ASSHOLE!
I fell asleep and Woke up. it was 5am.. I told him he had to go home. He said 5 more minutes.. I fell asleep again. He woke me up saying he was going home.. and once again he asked "so you don't have the money?? only 160?" "um call me tomorrow I get off work at 4:45pm.. and I'll see if I have the money together.. if I do .. I'll give it to you"
yeah right.
I am disgusted.
Monet I miss you bitch! come home!!!!!