Its all coming out on the table .....
So after the horrible birthday I thought maybe just maybe this weekend I could enjoy myself and makeup for the horrible bday but NO I never get a break! So Friday Im at work and things are going shitty gettin shafted let and right ... then I got my ass kicked but then Dustin and Silvis came in and I got to wait on them so it was really nice ... but then Dustin stayed while I was puttin up chairs and we were talking and stuff because Megan V. came back up to hang with me and chat with Dustin and he said something while I was puttin up stools and I was like what ...and he goes well maybe Kevin is with another girl ...so I was like what and he's like Im just kiddin and I know that he wouldn't have said it if there wasn't a reason for it so I sat up at the bar after we closed to chat it up with Beth and I told her about what he said and she was like we'll you gotta find out cause you shouldn't waste your time so I ask Meg to talk to Dustin and find out whats up and she calls me back to tell me that he was hangin out with him last weekend and he just mentioned that he was seeing this girl and it was the first he had heard about her but thats all he knew ... so I tell beth and shes like forget him you should call joe whom I was talking to for the last like 8 mos (hush husg it was a secret) and he had been kinda shitty to me prior to me talking to kevin so thats why i started talkin to him but I took her advice and called him and he never answered... so of course im sad as hell and i start crying so i cry myself to sleep like the third night in a row ... then I picked up a double the next day so I worked all day and didnt make shit ... and Joe came in at 5 and as usual didn't talk to me the whole time i was there so I left at 1:45 and on my way home I called him to see if he wanted to hang out and so I sat up waiting until like 2:40 and finally I was like fuck it I ain't waitin so I went to bed and he calls me at 430 in the mornin sayin i could come over and he was being a dick saying "you know you want to have sex and I was like Joe I called to hang out not have sex" so hes like whatever if you want to come over i'll be there in 20 mins so i was like ok im on my way and I rolled over and went back to bed ..it was freezin i wasn't going anywhere so he called back and was like where are you and i was like Im sleeping so i let him go and then comes SUNDAY worst day ever ... I go to work at 5 which we were only open til 9 cause we were havin our xmas party so we had to start kickin people out at 845 which they were pissed cause there was a big game on ... so Dustin and Silvis and Don come in and Melinda didn't want to wait on them so she asked me to so I did and it was fun cause I didn't have any tables so I just got to sit down and chat with them ... then in comes Kevin with the new girl ... and of course I have to wait on them so I put on my happy face to go wait on them trying everything in the world to not cry but I did a decent job so they left and I got ready for our party which i looked stupid I felt like a grandma but i got over it and went out there only to be sittin at the bar continuing to be sad ... so then walks in Cam and Joe which were already drunk and he was gettin all over all the girls i work with to piss me off ... so the only words he said to me was like "oh thanks for passin out on me" and walked away so now im even more sad ... so thinkin im havin a horrible time I text someone to see if they wanted to hang out and they completely shot me down and so after the party me and meg went to michaels to go dance and drink a lil bit so that I could forget all that shit so me and cam are out on the floor shakin it ... invented a new move that megan likes to call the "carwash" she said when i shake my ass it looks like a car wash ... so I look over and theres joe makin out and pretty much havin sex with this chicks sister i work with ...intentionally doing it right in front of me ... so now my night is officially a disaster ... we leave go back to the hotel and joe came walkin in so we left and I went home and called DP aka dustin at 345 in the morning and was pouring out my heart to him ballin my eyes out .. I was just fed up with everything so I knew i could talk to him ... hes such a trooper I love him ...hes my bud ... he gave me some great advice and made me smile too "lol BAGINA" i love it ... so that was my weekend .... I guess If just been overlooking certain people in my life ... so who knows where I go from here .... I dont know what to do anymore ...