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This has seriously been such a horrible night. I dont know whats wrong with me anymore. I just havent been myself.
Andy made me so sad tonight. Hes basically been telling me what a horrible girlfriend I am. And what Im so sad about is, im pretty sure its true. Im a horrible girlfriend. Even though, in a few minutes he will say, "no your not...brelan, your really not."
But I know deep down. I am. And I treat Andy horrible. I dont deserve him at all. He cant even trust me at all. That makes me feel like shit. And now, Im so sorry.
Matts also not helping. He almost made me cry again tonight. on top of andy almost making me cry. But i cant really blame anyone but myself.
Im gonna go. I cant really go to sleep. I dont know what i'll do.